Thursday, October 27, 2016

Do whatever the f*ck you want


I'm tired and hungry and I'm looking around. What I see is the normal everyday life.

Nothing is really wrong... Until I think there is something wrong. Then there is.

So now, for some reason, I think there is. 

I see that what I had always considered normal life is actually a bit strange and that nothing is quite what I thought.

I have taken a step back from my life, one small step, and I'm confused by what I see.

I slip into this life that is laid out for me the way a foot slip in the shoe. I decide nothing, I don't live my life by choice, but by default. I play the roles I am born to. I don't know any better, and I don't know the reason why I don't know any better.

I seem to dwell in an endless desert in which I only I and my thirst exist. I seem to spend an inordinate amount of time chasing happiness. As I examine my situation, I find it odd that I resemble Willie The Coyote, and that my entire life is just like a cartoon.

Pretty weird huh?

How did I not see this before? In fact, now that I do see it, I can't believe I ever didn't see it, much less that I've gone my entire life without noticing - I am a cartoon coyote in a cartoon desert chasing cartoon happiness.

Why am I chasing the happiness? Why does my entire existence revolve around such a ridiculous endeavour? What drives me for that? Is it hatred? Love? Lust? Personal achievement?

I'm seeing my life as a lie. 

It’s not like I have anything against happiness, love, or success, or personal achievements or being nice, smiling more, eating healthy, losing weight, being your best, or embracing the day with a positive attitude. Those all sound great. Honestly, they do.

It’s just that I have a problem with being told to do all of those things by someone laughing on a tropical island, waving a red scarf around head, while some professional photographer snapping the picture. Whatever.

I am coming to the end of this post, that I want to share with you. And I have a message for you...

Do whatever the fuck you want.

Be your damn self. Don’t be a terrible person. Be nice to others. Be supportive of your friends...

But seriously, do whatever the fuck you want!

Do you want glass of beer? Then just drink a fucking beer. Do you want a peace of chocolate? Don’t be gross about it, and don’t eat a chocolate three meals a day. But I beg you stop beating yourself up about it and just eat.

Do. Whatever. The Fuck. You Want.

The life is your show. It is your universe.

Who else knows about your thoughts and feelings? There is no one else there, you are completely on your own. Everything is available to you. No one else can lead you, pull you, push you or carry you. No one else is necessary for your success.

If you understand that, you will understand that it is the best news you could possibly receive.


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About Zee Mark

I am an Ashtanga yoga practitioner from Toronto, Canada. I am writing a blog about awakening, yoga and everyday life. My entire life journey has led me to this very moment in time. I finally arrived to a place where I am okay with the truth that there is no truth.