Sunday, May 21, 2017

On the Road to Infinity


When questions are prohibited, the answers are meaningless.

I posted my famous article So it begins... The greatest shitstorm of your time to the Facebook page Awakening Community and I got a lot of shitstorm comments. Although some people like the post the majority was totally against and they expressed it freely. They asked for my intent of posting that.


The main reason I post it there is to see are they awaken, as they claim or not. I have concluded that they are just like fleshy robots running on outdated awakening software. They possess knowledge and full capacity for thought. They competently handle all the complexities of life, I mean family, health, finance, career, household, day in and day out, year after year. They are quite intelligent, mature, clever, kind, honest. But they are not awaken. Whenever we turn to different view of awakening, the most basic and essential facts about awakening, all I have seen are dubious stares and incoherent skepticism.

Awakening for them is to be nice and say you are sorry when you done wrong and your loving Spirit (they don't cal it God) won't cook your ass. They hope for transcendental bliss, cosmic consciousness, kundalini awakening, supreme love... Be nice, be quiet, smile, breathe deeply, be good, don't ask questions, don't use your minds, don't make a disturbance — sound familiar?


The people on such communities like that one I just visited are really doing nothing more than maintaining  their ignorance. None of them are divesting themselves of their egoic bonds. There is no interest in  freedom. It's all been channeled safely into non-threatening, ego-gratifying avenues such as "unique souls comming together", "awakening is a gift", heart based spirituality and other healthy lifestyles hobbies... yoga,  meditation, praying, chanting, vegetarianism, attending darshan and satsang, vipasana,  pranayama, zazen, donating money to charitable institutions, reading classical spiritual literature, purifying body etc...

These people are doing all this spiritual stuff because they want to maintain certain direction. They want to develop spiritually or grow closer to Universal consionsiousness, or go to Heaven, or raise their vibration, or get enlightment, obtain liberation - something along those general lines, they call that awakening. In short, they are moving, progressing. They are heading toward one point and away from another.

They believe, in the broadest sense, that something is wrong and that "right living" can make it right. What that something is, what's wrong with it, and how it can be fixed all differ from person to person, but general pattern is always the same. However, the truth is that wrongness is entirely imagined. It is the Ego. It is the core of delusion.


The essence of my post is to tell them to stop considering themselves to be a process, to have past and future, to have history, to keep progressing somewhere. In terms of awakening it doesn't matter much if one meditates or not, or whether one eats meat or not, or whether one gives to charities or steals from them. For awakening they need to dismantle false preconceptions and get out from Hindu-Christian-Buddhist-Zen-New Age They need to challenge their opinions; the most cherished and deeply held beliefs because no belief is true. They need to understand the ego structure, their false self.

Delusion is the structural integrity of ego. Observe ego at work, make a study of it, and dissect it, reverse- engineer it. The awakening starts from there. The people who want to explore life and freedom must harden their heart and sharpen their mind. They must face the facts, they must face their own mortality, their own meaninglessness. There is nothing more devastating to ego than the contemplation of meaninglessness and insignificance. Of nothingness. Of no-self.

One does not undergo the process of awakening out of love for the true but out of hatred for the false: a hatred so intense that it burns everything and spares nothing.

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About Zee Mark

I am an Ashtanga yoga practitioner from Toronto, Canada. I am writing a blog about awakening, yoga and everyday life. My entire life journey has led me to this very moment in time. I finally arrived to a place where I am okay with the truth that there is no truth.