Friday, July 21, 2017

Have courage to live a life true to yourself


Recently I'm writing only about my personal life and posting my recent photos however I have never disregarded awakening and my attempt to be a conscious human being. My life is not a rush and I am not living in a frantic tempo. Not because I want to, but because I just do what is necessary.

And for me, it is necessary to get rid of belly fat. I want to look good, fuck the age and stories about it. I don't want to give up so easily. I am a double Aries and I know how to fight. The other day I washed my hair with coconut oil mixed with lemon. It is said that the gray hair will slowly start to disappear. I read about this on the net so why not try it.

I started taking CLA: Conjugated Linoleic Acid, pills. CLA is a mixture of different types of isomers of linoleic acid, whatever that means, which is found preferentially in dairy products and meat. It should benefit me to get rid of belly fat. Gym exercise, additional protein and CLA is the formula for next months. Let see what will happen.

My mother died in the palliative care in January 2015. I was with her a month earlier and I spend considerable time in that hospital department. The palliative care is the last place, it is the place for dying.

I read an article about the last words of the patients on the palliative care. Those patients in their last days has revealed the most common regrets they have at the end of their lives.

I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me – dying patients

When you realize that your life is almost over and look back clearly on it you will understand that all was up to you and your courage to live life true to yourself, not the life others expected of you. In other words you will see that your dreams have gone unfulfilled. You'll realize that you've wasted your life.

I am 52 and I had my fair share of shitty experiences, I look back and realize I only have myself to blame. Yes, I am a kind of taking a responsibility for being an asshole and for being an idiot. I was living my life but I didn't feel it as my dream... I have changed that.

Almost everyone of you is convinced that you're having a terrible life, and that most of the time you're making a fool of yourself. That's true but despite your feelings, your life is actually above average; you live quite good life.

There is no need to improve anything in your life. Emotionally, this is like a blow to the stomach for you. But think for yourself and figure out what is true. The life is your show. It is your universe.

Who else knows about your thoughts and feelings? There is no one else there, just you, and nothing is being withheld from you. You are completely on your own. There is no place for worries. Everything is available to you. No one else has anything you need. No one else can lead you, pull you, push you or carry you. No one else is necessary to your success. You keep fucking yourself over. If you understand that, you will understand that it is the best news you could possibly receive.

I wish I hadn't worked so hard – dying patients

On the dead-bed every male have regret about the work. They wished that they had't worked so hard. They had spend so much of their life on the treadmill of a work existence. And for what? Bigger car or house?

Move your attention from the work. Turn the attention of your mind to yourself. How do you know you exist? If you don’t do this then you will continue to work like a dog believing in the non-existent universe until you die.

Change your attitude! The real wisdom is related to recognition of what is true, everlasting, and what is not. When you truly understand, you will finally realize that your work is necessary only for your daily needs and nothing else. Pay more attention to your needs...

I wish that I had let myself be happier – dying patients

Many dying patients did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice. They lived their life according to patterns and habits. They followed comfort of familiarity. Deep within, they longed to laugh more and have craziness in their life.

In ten days I am going on a vacation but I am happy right now. Why are you seeking special circumstances for happiness? Happiness is momentary sensations of forgetfulness of problems, which of course do not disappear but that forgetfulness gives the sense of being happy.

You move from one thought to another, from one cage to another, from one pose to another, hoping to find happiness, not only happiness in relationship with people, but also the happiness as a resting place where your mind will never be disturbed, where you cease to be tortured by your thoughts.

I may put this in different words, I may use different jargon, but that is what you want - a place where your mind can rest, where it is not tortured by its own activities, where there is no sorrow, but I will stop here...

May you find your happiness!!!

Find what gives your life meaning and what gives you a sense of purpose. Find out what you want. Start from there and happiness is easily found; remember very search for happiness is itself the main reason for unhappiness.

Good luck. 😊

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About Zee Mark

I am an Ashtanga yoga practitioner from Toronto, Canada. I am writing a blog about awakening, yoga and everyday life. My entire life journey has led me to this very moment in time. I finally arrived to a place where I am okay with the truth that there is no truth.