Thursday, August 31, 2017

The Greatest Show Not On Television... Is Back

My new dating experience, dedicated to nobody...

I was on the first date after more than a year., two emails and there we were, face to face... She is a gorgeous blond, petite and thin, 45 years old, Canadian Italian.

She has style. Under black long sweater she wore a tight black skirt, high heels, a white blouse, and a gold and black scarf around her neck. She has a cute small nose, marvelous breasts and fine ass.

She told me she is not a desperate to find someone. She sounded cheesy and at the same time, in a way, beautiful. We talked without touching. We were at Queens Pasta and I told her that I live nearby but she pretended not to hear that. I suggested that after dinner we go to Swan, a nearby bar and she agreed.

I noticed that she does not eat much. After two hours of quite pleasant and vibrant conversation, waiter packed her food, I paid the bill and we walked to her car in order to leave the food container... and then... I kissed her, she returned the kiss. She told me that she likes me. In the Swan we were like two teenagers, holding hands and kissing.

I called her to my place but she did not accept it. She drove me to the entry of my condo and we parted with smiles. I like her a lot and there is a chance that I have found a girlfriend...

I have seen her last night again. She came to my place and we have a lot of fun. We went to Open Cork for a dinner, the sea platter for two was a way too much for us. The food was great and the wine was delicious too. After dinner we went back to my place and she stayed well after midnight. We scheduled next date for this weekend.

I'm bouncing back. It is a challenge of meeting someone new and a new date can be downright daunting but I was lucky. I do think that the Bumble app is the best online dating app because it match up people that already like each other. The Bumble account is connected to Facebook account and there is no so much lies (except if a person lies on Facebook) about age and recent photos.

For a long time I was in a toxic relationship and although I tried to escape several times I didn’t quite realize how much I was emotionally abused. In past relationship everything was about my former girlfriend, what she does, what she thinks and everything was a kind of hope that things will change. There was also a comfort in things that are the same. There’s a comfort in being with someone who knows me so deeply.

It takes a lot of courage to walk away from such relationship. But now, when I have met a different girl I can fully realize how negatively this past relationship has affected me. Now, I don’t trust anyone. Even myself. I became paranoid as fuck. I don’t believe people can be honest or mean what they say.

I wonder how I tolerated past relationship for so long. In this new relationship I don't expect much. I simply don’t believe good girls exist because for so long I looked for the wrong qualities and I accepted them as normal. Time with this new girl will tell am I right or wrong... we have started and things look good for now although I need to change and adapt to the new situation.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Yoga Teacher Accidentally Ate Apple Worm

TORONTO, August 30, 2017, (News) - For Judith (37) from Toronto, a yoga teacher and a long-standing vegan, afternoon meal turned into a true nightmare, when she realized that she had eaten a worm from the apple, thinking she was eating a ripe apple.

She is now concerned of her health, since she imported 3 grams of animal protein into her stomach.

- At approximately 10:30 this morning, we received the phone call from Judith with a request to urgently come to her place and perform detoxification, known as gastric lavage, because of suspicion of poisoning - said Dr. Kevin Castellani from Toronto's ambulance service.

The mobile team of the St. Joseph Hospital hospitalized Judith, who admitted that her homeostasis was seriously compromised, and that the consequences for her organism were unimaginable if these proteins of animal origin reached the bloodstream. Shortly thereafter, Judith was declined the hospital service and she was escorted out of the hospital without the required therapy. Judith  was outrageous. Her yoga students have a lot of understanding for her dissatisfaction.

- Shame they did not provide her with the required treatment. Judith is a good yoga teacher and a very responsible person in her own right. She takes strict care of her diet. Whatever she eats, she checks three times what is served. In Toronto yoga community, there is probably not a single person who is not familiar with Judith's nutrition, says one of her yoga student.

We looked at the matter ourselves and our research shows that the concentration of worms in apples and other fruits and vegetables, according to certain vegan standards, should not exceed 3 mg, which is one fifth of an average worm. Judith has eaten the whole worm!!! She was not in a position to make statements for the media.

The NGO "Vegga Eatt", which promotes veganism and animal protection, sharply condemned this barbaric act of killing a worm. A lawsuit against Judith  has been filed for the murder in negligence, before the International Court of Justice in Strasbourg.

In conclusion... don't eat worms! You are what you eat. Forgo the junk food and go for clean, healthy foods, particularly fruits and vegetables as well as whole grains and lean protein. Proper nutrition is a must for a long, healthy, stress-free life.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Back To Online Dating

I'm free again. I'm single and able to do whatever I want with my time and money. The first thing I did this morning is to download Bumble online dating app. I enrolled for the Bumble boost for a month (worth $30) so I'm able to see who likes my profile.

Bumble is like Tinder, both men and women swipe, but only women can start the conversation, and they only have 24 hours from the time they match to start chatting before the connection disappears forever. I like that.

You download the app, set up your profile, and start swiping. If you mess up and accidentally swipe left when you mean to swipe right — swipe right meaning that you're interested in someone — you can shake your phone to undo it. The user interface isn't difficult, and it's easy to use.

During a day I received 3 likes from the very attractive women. I matched them, meaning I have accepted their likes and now I am waiting for their contact. I would like to go on date this wekend...

So what do you think? If you want to start the online dating, you register on dating site, upload your best looking photos, fill out gibberish as your profile, mention something boring about the things you love, list some books you like, list sports you do and then sit back, kick your feet up, and wait for the messages to roll in. Right?

You expect your inbox filled with messages, notes of the likes from women who find your taste “refreshing”. You will chose the best looking one and invite her for a drink or dinner. After she said "yes", you put on some nice shirt, plunge out into the unknown, meet a stranger, and after an hour of slightly pleasant conversation, you grab the check. You ended up at your place or you part away with kisses, and you set up next date probably in a three or four days. You are happy online dater.

But, that is in the perfect world, the reality of online dating is something else.

The online dating is a game. Wake up and be realistic if you didn't know this. You've got to keep on playing, till you hit the right combination, the winning one, and you end up on a perfect date with the woman of your dreams.

It seems like a no brainer, but you as you are now is the one of the biggest setbacks you have to overcome. Playing this Game involves personal changes.

Speak with your friends, especially females and ask them what they think how can you change your appearance to look more attractive. They will tell you. Looking yourself through others eyes is good in this case. Write down what they say. Is it changing the clothes, or hairstyle or whatever.

Do it. Follow up with them again. The point is to see yourself realistically like others see you.

Your Profile

Are you clear what do you want. What kind of person you want to attract? What is your relationship goal? Write honestly. Be yourself, be confident, be realistic and open-minded. Write your preferences but keep your expectations grounded in reality.

Write your profile in an easy manner... do not complicate things. Don't lie. Be simple to the point.

You need to remember you are only going to be concerned about 5% of the women on the dating site. The other 95% are there to weed through, sort out, and throw away (delete the messages from them).

Know what do you want, keeping focus on your goal.

Choose Photos Strategically

In online dating, the pictures are the first line of connection. Think about the message you're sending. Your pics dictate how potential dates view you, so be proactive and decide what image you want to project.

If you aren't sure how your profile and photos looks/reads, ask a friend to proof read it.

Your First Message

Writing the first message is tricky and writing a lot is usually a sign of a deep lack of confidence. Don't feel that she isn't interested in what you're saying, dude, she is on the site for the reason. Start as a friend and equal.

Read her profile. Be funny but avoid being cheesy - aim your joke at something you both have in common - perhaps something in her profile - maybe a movie?

Look through her interests, favorite foods, her job and try and spark up conversation based on what she's into.

Avoid suggesting a face-to-face meeting in your first message, instead stick to something you've seen on their profile - do you share the same music taste? Has she seen your favorite band live?

a) prove you read her profile,
b) start a conversation about stuff you share in common,
c) reinforces further that you're interested what she thinks, not just her look, by asking more about the stuff she's interested in.

Never ever compliment her looks. Those messages are shallow and meaningless. End the message skillfully... I would like to read your palm and tell you what future holds for you, is great example.

Ask one or two questions. Some guys make the mistake of firing off a long list of questions about a whole range of topics. This is too much for her.

Stick with one or two low-pressure questions that make it easy for her to respond quickly because she'e interested.

Her profile is one big list of conversation topics.  Just pick one detail you think is cool, or you're genuinely curious about, and ask her about it.

Analyse her profile and photos

You have seen her and you think you’re going to meet her as a thin, blonde, beautiful woman, well don't be so sure! More than half of women lie about their looks. Simply they post old photographs on their profile. Yes, surprise surprise!

It is the online dating reality, a shameful dishonesty from people looking to find their true match.

Some women are lying about their looks. Do they really think that when they finally encounter you in person, that it won’t be immediately obvious that they are four years older, two cup sizes smaller, couple inches shorter and about 20 pounds heavier than they show on her picture?

Perhaps they assume their personalities will magically make up for the fact they do not look anything like the picture that was posted online.

Before you decide to contact her analyse her profile and carefully look at her photos. Photos can tell you a lot about your potential date.

 - No photo or a face covered with hair are a sign that she probably has something to hide, or else she is not really serious about dating, she only wants to go for free drinks and dinners.

 - If she has only one photo with face only, you should be very careful and ask for full figure photo before the actual date.

 - If she has more than 10 photos, it means she is completely self-absorbed.

 - All her photos are cut out from photos with another people? Well, that’s a huge red flag on so many levels. Such photos are lies, lies and lies.

 - Is there someone or something else in her photo? It’s good to have outside interests. But if her dog, friends, car or even her kids are in her photos, it may tell you a little about where you’ll stand in the scheme of things.

Anyway, by reading her profile you can feel that something is not right. Please understand, everything you have thought of being wrong, it will be wrong. The picture lie you can spot in the first few seconds of seeing her, the other lies you will notice later on... so good luck to you... and to me.

Monday, August 28, 2017

I have to walk away

In my opinion, most relationships last a way too long, a way beyond its expiration day.

Fear of being alone, of starting all over again, fear of hurting and of change can keep you stuck in a place you don't want to be. Many of you end up wasting months, years in a destructive relationship with a person you want to be with but, for whatever reason, is sucking the life out of you.

Here’s the thing, no relationship is perfect but my relationship, recently, became a kind of desperation. I feel I am constantly chasing my girlfriend down, apologizing, trying to understand her situation and trying to “fix” myself... so in my relationship, something is seriously out of whack.

Our future does not look bright. It looks more like a long, dark tunnel from where I will never emerge as her man. She will keep me hidden for simply reason that I am a Serbian. I feel that we are just like the ocean waves, meeting then retreating, never fully embracing the fullness of the intimacy that I crave for.

Every relationship has its ups and downs, and some enjoying the rollercoaster but when I'm waiting for her free time, feeling trapped and disappointed, and miserable, I remember that the only thing really keeping me in chains is my own decision to stay in them. And that's over. I want out.

I have to walk away from her, she may protest and say, “I thought we were fine.” If I don’t do this, one day she will walk away from me. I know that she doesn’t know what I’m talking about, this is the way she has always loved me.

I’m not the one for you dear, I know it deep down so I’m walking away...

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Waiting for Godot

We waited and waited. All of us. Didn't the shrink know that waiting was one of the things that drove people crazy? People waited all their lives. They waited to live, they waited to die. They waited in line to buy toilet paper. They waited in line for money. And if they didn't have any money they waited in longer lines. You waited to go to sleep and then you waited to awaken. You waited to get married and you waited to get divorced. You waited for it to rain, you waited for it to stop. You waited to eat and then you waited to eat again. You waited in a shrink's office with a bunch of psychos and you wondered if you were one. - Charles Bukowski

As I sit with my coffee this moment, reflecting upon my life and recent events, I'm reposting this article feeling a sense of indifference.

Have you watched Waiting for Godot?

If you did not ... Waiting for Godot, published by Samuel Beckett in 1949, is a play in which two characters (Estragon and Vladimir) are waiting for someone who never comes. If you want to impress someone, you say Waiting for Godot explores themes of existentialist philosophy. The emptiness and randomness of the plot causes the audience to wonder is there any meaning in the play – or in life.

At one moment Estragon asks Vladimir what it is that he has requested from Godot:

VLADIMIR: Oh ... nothing very definite.
ESTRAGON: A kind of prayer.
VLADIMIR: Precisely.
ESTRAGON: A vague supplication (asking or begging for something).

Sounds familiar? That is what we do all our life.

If someone asked me to describe life in one word, that word would be... WAITING.

Our whole life we are waiting for something. We're waiting for the dawn, birthday, holiday, train, children, summer, Friday, payment, vacation, recognition, dinner, enlightenment, love, new year, answer, smile, call, truth, destiny, death ...

I have stopped waiting for Godot.

I don't really wait for anything anymore. I have no ambition, nowhere to go, no one to be or become. I don't need to distract myself from anything or convince myself of anything. There is nothing that I think isn't as it should be, and I have no hope that things will be better. I have nothing to hope for.

I don't seem to be bored or unhappy about it, so I guess it is weird.

The Waiting for Godot plays quickly because it gives situations which don't offer anything. Thus the main theme of the play and the meaning of life is set in two sentences:

ESTRAGON: Nothing to be done.
VLADIMIR: I'm beginning to come round to that opinion.

Friday, August 25, 2017

Do you really want to stop dreaming?

Your sole purpose in this life is to reach awakening. Your goal is to recognize the flaws in your understanding that you have absorbed throughout your childhood and to rise above them. Your aim is to live, love, be selfless and be kind.

There are no accidents. Every single person who you meet is meant to cross your path. The sole purpose meeting other people is to awaken you, to challenge you and finally to change you.

You usualy find life's answers through lovers, friends, acquaintances or family. Those people give you answers that change your life's direction.

You know, being a kid wasn’t so great. Most of you had two tyrannical, insecure parents, afraid that you might not turn out right. You were small in a big world. You didn’t know much and you had to sit still and act your age... whatever that meant.

Forget about it. You get the best parts of being a grown up by still being a kid, still being wild and stuborn, still love life and still being young and of course, you don’t have to eat your veggies unless you really want to.

Looking back at my own life, I’ve crossed paths with so many people that are no longer  part of my present. My destiny was not permanently tied to them. Nevertheless, those people have changed me, they were placed by the universe at the right time.

As a consequence of meeting those people, now, I'm living my life in the moment and that may appear to be irresponsible to you, but it turns out it is the best possible thing I can do for myself because the awakening is indeed a frightening endeavour.

The awakening shatters your beliefs, your worldview and dissolves your certainty. It replaces the grownups answers with kids questions and it touch you psychologically and physically. It changes you by cleaning your perception. You will start seeing things you may not want to see.

This one is arguably the most painful thing of the awakening, the culprit of all seeing, is the seeing that you don't exist. Ah simple words which do not make any sense. Are they? The essence of you will never admit this seeing, but it is there like an abys staring into you. The real you is no-thing and you have to see it for yourself.

Yes, I am talking about awakening, a burning down of your expectations and hopes, a total disintegration of yourself. You descend, literally. And so you lose yourself and you may scream out. The only way to proceed is to fully accept humility, the scary, uncomfortable state of forgiving. It’s a tearing down of the walls that protect you from the world.

Humility hurts because it is the ultimate letting go of yourself. It’s a deep acceptance of the way things are, regardless of your need for things to be a certain way. It’s a decisive shedding of the burden of things that you cannot control.

Seeing impermanence, your lies and delusions and accepting humility gives you permission to authentically and sincerely live your life. In the end, awakening is scary and painful, but it is so amazingly rewarding that it doesn’t even matter.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Why married people only talk about kids?

What you are thinking of as "awake" - some intense new passion for a worthy cause or a deep feeling of love for all existence, is actually the deep sleep, much deeper than a feeling of boredom or indifference. It is an intense association with the Illusion. 

The bored and the indifferent are on the verge of leaving the lure of the temptress Maya behind, no longer swayed by her shiny attractions. They are on the verge of waking.

~ Shri Sadguru Siddharameshwar Maharaj

It is just matter of time, at some point you will conclude that there is nothing great about the world you live in. Whether this is inspired by a death of a parent, close relative or a friend, loss of job, divorce, the "awe-inspiring" boredom, or losing the loved one, at that moment you will stop questioning what is your life all about, you will see it for what really is.

I am not going to give you the big secret of life. You've been told since childhood that being a grown-up is awesome. And maybe now that you're an adult, you're still waiting for the awesome part. You are still running around chasing a successful career, catching the opportunity to become boss, manager, senior analyst while sleeping four or five hours a day... Good luck to you.

Do you spend your days, without time to relax, always watching the clock, wishing the morning away so you could go to lunch, wishing the afternoon away so you could go home? Never happy, always busy and tired and preparing for the next thing? Weekends are actually worse than weekdays because that's when everything that you didn't do must be done... cleaning, shopping, kid's stuff.

Why married people only talk about kids? Why married people have that insane preoccupation with the kids? 

The aimlessness of life. Married people live life in a cubicle, nothing to live for, nothing to die for. They live the life for children. I'm tired of all this crap I have to listen about children. That's all I hear about, everywhere... Raising children is getting entirely too much attention.

For married couples, who think they're such fucking hero for raising their kids, somebody has to tell them for their own good: their children are overrated and overvalued, and they've turned their life in a wrong way. Eventually they'll be disappointed...

So, don't live for your kids, it's not healthy. Well, you love your kids. So what?! Everybody loves their children; the love doesn't make you special. What I'm talking about is this constant, mindless concerns, this neurotic fixation that suggests that somehow your life has to revolve around the lives of your kids. It's completely insane.

Stop dragging kids all over town in search of empty, meaningless activities to kill time: scouts, swimming, soccer, karate, piano, tennis, bale, salsa, and who knows what else. It's absurd. You want to help your kids? Leave them alone or you will suffer on the end!

The life suffering is necessary because you must suffer until you realize that suffering is not necessary. 

All your beliefs, concepts, all thoughts, they are just imagination. And not only your beliefs but also your education and religion, spiritual understanding, life philosophy, your ideas and opinions and your God. Everything is a bullshit. What about meaning of your life? I can tell you... your existence is utterly, perfectly, gloriously meaningless. Truth is infinitely simple, your beliefs are infinitely complex.

Money, power, prestige, high heels, fashioned hairstyle, sure whatever defines you, however you describe yourself, think of yourself, project yourself... every feature, every trait, characteristic, feeling, belief, opinion, all of it... self-ness, it is all worthless. Just an empty costume.

"And for what?" Lisa continues. "This wasn't for a few months or even years. this was our whole life! We were trapped! Fifteen years of it! Isn't that nuts? And for what? To raise kids? That's just an excuse. Anyone can raise kids: you don't have to live in constant soul-crushing servitude to do it. One day I asked DJ what he really wanted out of life and he said he wanted to be a dentist just like daddy. It was like being kicked in the stomach."

She shakes her head sadly. "And you know, it's not just that it's a terrible way to live: it's not really life at all. It's not something you choose, it's what you get when you don't choose. We just marched ourselves into these damned idiotic, impossible lives without ever stopping to think about what we were doing. High school, college, post-grad and then straight into the workforce. Get married, have a kid, borrow money, buy a house, fill it with junk, have another kid, borrow more money, bigger house, more junk. It's completely insane, but that's how everyone I know lived. Affluenza, they call it. like a disease. That's what it is. For the last seven years we've been struggling just to make the minimum payments on our debt."

She laughs bitterly. "Everyone I knew was the same way. Some at a higher income level, some lower, but I think practically everyone we knew was dangerously over-extended in every direction. Money, time, work, responsibilities. We were doing everything right and we didn't really have any misfortune: no tragedies or health issues. We've been members of the local country club for ten years. Yes, we were living the American dream. Exhausted, broke, not good parents, not happy, and now split up."

~ Spiritual Warfare, Jed McKenna

I've stopped comparing myself to you. I've stopped competition with you. I've stop following you. I don't judge you, I'm not interested of what you think and do. You have evolved in one side only, growing in social area without any comparable growth in self-knowledge. This creates your feeling of being lonely, temporary visitor in the universe.

You are driven by greed for material objects and fear of being hungry, your God sucks, your kids are spoiled, your philosophy is dead. I'm not saying you need a new religion. You need a new experience of what it is to be "you". Your common sensation of self is a hoax. You are dreaming, you are hypnotized imagining yourself as a good parent.

I don't expect you to accept my words that I'm saying here. You can reject my words because they do not fit into your life philosophy. Whatever. I'm moving away from your image of brighter future and better tomorrow for your kids. I'm running away from whatever makes you feel good and whatever boosts your self esteem, tells you you are okay, tells you everything is just fine the way it is. It isn't.

Monday, August 21, 2017

Monday, Beer Night Tonight !!!

My twin sister

Yesterday, I travelled 20 hours, from Belgrade via Paris I arrived in Toronto at 4 p.m. Waited for suitcase for one hour and I was at home around 6 p.m. From Belgrade to Paris, due to overbooked flight, they gave me a business class seat so that was so nice. You know, champagne and nice breakfast. The trip from Paris also was pleasant, I had a seat in the first row, a lot of room for my legs, I watched the movies and slept.

17 days of vacation is finished and I am glad that is over. I do like my family and friends overseas but my heart is in Toronto. 24 years living in Toronto has changed me and I have a little in common with people in Serbia. 

Last night, my daughter brought me groceries so when I returned from the trip I did not go out to buy anything. My girlfriend came later at night and we had wonderful time. I really missed her. She looked beautiful, she has changed a lot since we met. I love her.

My Friends, my generation

I woke up at 5 a.m. refreshed, I cannot sleep, probably jetlag. Now I am drinking a coffee and I will do yoga practice. Life goes on. I will go to the office today and I am expecting a lot of work.

My money situation is not so good. I spend a way too much on the vacation, much more than I planned, but that is not surprising at all. Now I have to work hard to save the money and return to "positive" zero. It is okay I will not be so stressful about that. Next three-four months I will not travel anywhere. My girlfriend is too busy for vacation and my plan to go to India is moved for the January next year. Until then I will have enough money to recover.

I have gained 3 kg on my vacation and all went to the belly fat so I have to go on diet again. My final thoughts about vacation... it was hot, expensive and most of the time boring. I have no intention to go to Serbia next year.

My Father and The Cat

Thursday, August 17, 2017

Back to my home...

I am a Godfather of this beautiful family

I'm packing my suitcase,  my vacation is coming to the end. Tomorrow, I'm traveling to Belgrade my godfather is making a party for me. I will sleep over at his place.

On Saturday I will be at my sister's condo and early Sunday morning I will be headed to Paris. I will arrive  at Toronto at 4 p.m.  local time.

I had nice vacation. I spent time with my father and sister, we laughed a lot, we were having so many lunches and dinners in different restaurants, I visited almost all my family, great wedding party of my cousin...

I did six yoga practices on the balcony of now my former house. I could do better but hot weather, laziness and procrastination did its thing.

I am glad to go back to Toronto, to my home. As I said in previous posts, I gave up my entail and I have nothing in Serbia anymore. I am talking about the properties. Of course my family is here and I will be visiting them but not so often like before.  Simply, I don't see myself living here.

My father's cat - Blue Russian

The rest of the year should be interesting. I like the most September and October in Toronto. I will go to work at the office on Monday, rested, eager to return to usual routine. 

I am missing my daughter and my girlfriend and I am looking forward seeing them.

I am going to make plans for the rest of the year, I would like to go to India as well as to Carribean. Everything is possible....

Sunday, August 13, 2017

On the move

Finally colder weather arrived in Serbia. Yesterday's rain cooled down the air and today is 20 ℃ less, it is 15℃, cloudy day.

It is 9 a.m. in the morning and I am drinking the second coffee. I feel good, relaxed and full of energy.

All morning I am looking for information about Mysore, India trip. I will talk with my girlfriend about her plans for the rest of the year. Maybe we will go together on vacation, somewhere on the Caribbean sea but her time is very limited. If she is not able to go, I am going to India in December.

In India, my plan is to do yoga with Sharaswati, Sharat's mother at AYRI for 20 days and to visit Kovalam for 7 days, to go on beautiful beaches and see new landscapes and culture.

In meanwhile, I am enjoying my stay here. Last night with my sister and father I went to restaurant where I met my cousin and we had a good time.

My godfather with his family is coming to visit me on Wednesday and I am going to Belgrade on Friday to spend a night with them. I am traveling home to Toronto on Sunday.

I'm writing only about my personal life and posting my photos however I have never disregarded awakening and my attempt to be a conscious human being. My life is not a rush and I am not living in a frantic tempo.

I don't know about you, but on this road, I do wonder where I am. I arrived to a place where I am okay with the truth. And the truth is simple... less you posses less headaches you have.

I have gave up my entail, my house here in Serbia and now I am free to go and do whatever I want. I am not obligated to invest my money for fixing the house problems. I will concentrate to pay out my mortgage for the condo in Toronto and make plans to stay in Canada for the rest of my life.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Going to Mysore, India

Yesterday was another hot day here in Serbia.  +38℃. In the morning I went and bought a new shoes and exchange some money. I did not spent a lot but I gave too much money for presents to my relatives, around $2500 euros. 

The economic situation in Serbia can be described in one word - disaster. Other main observation are depression of people and corruption of the state. I will not come here next year. Now when I gave up my house I don't feel anything that binds me on this place. I am free to explore other opportunities.

I have talked with my friends and cousins and i don' t share their opinions, I have so little in common with them.  They are all talking about politics, economy and some huge business. They know everything just about everything. No one actually asked me how am I, what I feel and do. 

I have seen this before but now I have no excuse for such behavior. I gave them my presents and they will not see me in a while.  I am going to change the things. In the last ten years I was coming here and that is over.

I have here a lot of time to think and plan my future. I will not go to Mexico in September I decided to travel to Mysore, India in December and do ashtanga yoga for a month. 

I have 10 days of vacation left for this year and I will take the rest from next year. I am going to blog about the Mysore trip and it will be interesting. I am planning to go alone.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Vacation Time

It is exactly seven days since I left Toronto. I traveled via Amsterdam and the flight was on time. I came to Belgrade around noon on Friday in the middle of the hottest summer day in the last decades.

On the weekend I was with my family on a wedding party. We were partying for three days in a raw. Lots of beer, music and dancing in hot nights. On Sunday was 46℃.

Today I did the third yoga practice at my home and I am planning to go to Gucha the biggest brass trumpet festival in the world.

I have made some important decisions. I gave up my house to my sister. She will take care about my father in his old age and she is living here. I have no plans to return from Toronto and live in Serbia. So we are going to visit a lawyer and put my will in writing.

I have visited my relatives in the last couple of days... their thinking and words are strange for me and I do not see myself being here. Probably I will not come next year.