Monday, August 28, 2017

I have to walk away

In my opinion, most relationships last a way too long, a way beyond its expiration day.

Fear of being alone, of starting all over again, fear of hurting and of change can keep you stuck in a place you don't want to be. Many of you end up wasting months, years in a destructive relationship with a person you want to be with but, for whatever reason, is sucking the life out of you.

Here’s the thing, no relationship is perfect but my relationship, recently, became a kind of desperation. I feel I am constantly chasing my girlfriend down, apologizing, trying to understand her situation and trying to “fix” myself... so in my relationship, something is seriously out of whack.

Our future does not look bright. It looks more like a long, dark tunnel from where I will never emerge as her man. She will keep me hidden for simply reason that I am a Serbian. I feel that we are just like the ocean waves, meeting then retreating, never fully embracing the fullness of the intimacy that I crave for.

Every relationship has its ups and downs, and some enjoying the rollercoaster but when I'm waiting for her free time, feeling trapped and disappointed, and miserable, I remember that the only thing really keeping me in chains is my own decision to stay in them. And that's over. I want out.

I have to walk away from her, she may protest and say, “I thought we were fine.” If I don’t do this, one day she will walk away from me. I know that she doesn’t know what I’m talking about, this is the way she has always loved me.

I’m not the one for you dear, I know it deep down so I’m walking away...

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