Monday, October 30, 2017

What matters the most ~ ♡ ~

Suddenly awaken.... Listen to parents. Go to school. Get a job. Toil through eight or nine hour days. Go home. Go to work. Get married. Make kids. Go to work. Go home. Get divorced. Go to an empty house and eat leftovers while watching re-runs. That's it.

It is Monday 5:15 PM, I came from work, ate the leftovers from yesterday and now I am waiting for 7 P.M. to go to yoga class with my friends. My daily schedule revolves around yoga, work at the office and sometimes spending time with my girlfriend. I used to go out regularly... Dirty Martini at Oakville, downtown Pravda, Reservoir Lounge, Fregatta are the clubs I used to visit every weekend. Somehow I don't go there anymore.

I'm completely inactive regarding online dating. I have deleted my profiles on Bumble and I have stopped looking for love. I have met a lot of women there. Dinners, a glass of wine and usual stories about divorce, kids, relationship wishes, etc... and the expectation for sex are my past.

So these days, most of the time I am alone. The best part about it is that you really don't have to answer to anybody. If you're reading this so far, you're probably really bored and, at the moment, have no one to be with. Don't panic, it is a good thing, being alone is a not so bad place to be, besides the sense of boredom or the feelings of isolation, you are being forced to confront your own thoughts.

It's said... there is a difference between being alone and feeling lonely. Huh, don't try to figure out the meaning of such empty phrases. Being alone is what you make of it.

Maybe you're not alone but you're living a life in quiet desperation; you worry, oooh, how you worry, twenty-six hours a day! And what do you worry about?... You worry about you! What's in this shit for you? What's gonna happen to you? Such egomania! So horrendous, so fascinating!

Generally speaking, life is a great thing. Although, you do need something that moves you, shakes you up, and changes your perspective. So sometimes some bad things happen to you. They are usually an indication of the beginning of the conscious spiritual journey. It is the beginning of a journey of questioning, digging deeper, and seeking wisdom.

I don’t believe in learning, books, articles, videos, or any other means of communication as a means of finding the truth. Rather, I see them as a means of communicating empty thoughts and false ideas.

There is no spiritual growth, no experience that will make you suddenly aware of the Truth. I firmly believe that all spiritual practices count for nothing. There is nothing to learn, nothing to know, nothing to practice, nothing to become in this life.

The world is a blinding place, thick screen in front of your eyes, a veil that creates your problems which so effectively turn your attention from the simple fact that everything is NOTHING.

Do whatever you want to do in the world but be detached by understanding because whatever you achieve is an illusion. It does not exist except in your imagination. See the false as the false, that is all that you can do.

Man, you've got it all wrong,
there's no creator or creation here,
no gross and fine, no wind or fire,
no sun, moon, earth or water,
no word, no flesh, no faith,
no cause and effect, 
not any thought of knowledge. 
No God or devil.
No mother, father or son here.
If you understand now, you are master,
I am your follower.

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