Wednesday, November 15, 2017

I am not scared of growing old...


I went to bed at 8:30 pm last night. I woke up at 2:15 am with a feeling of optimism. I am having simple goals - yoga practice, gym exercises, eating healthy, less drinking and saving money. Nothing special just being conscious during interaction with others. I will write this post and then go to sleep until morning...

I'm not an advanced yoga practitioner, a fitness teacher, or a healthy diet guru, not even a great blog writer. I write here what I'm interested in at present moment. I have no advice for you. Do whatever you want to do. As for myself, I'm not totally out of touch with conscious living.


I'm someone who has no big aspirations, but in spite of my age, I want to be healthy and look good. I want to lose 5 kg (11 lbs) in 30 days. Aiming to lose 5 kg within a month is a realistic goal; with the appropriate changes to my diet, new exercise plan and lifestyle changes, I will be able to accomplish it. Typically, losing more than 1.0 kg per week isn't recommended. Quick weight loss isn't safe. Giving myself a month to lose weight is a great challenge.


The majority of the people of my age are overweight, busy with their work, under all kinds of stress, very serious and sarcastic. They follow sports and politics, they watch TV and news at 11 PM... The confidence goes down after hitting 50 and by age of 60, they are obese and more likely to have heart disease, strokes, diabetes, cancer, and depression. I have decided not to count myself in this general population of men. Except for the age, I have nothing in common with them.


I hate to say this but the more I look at me the more ashamed I am part of my generation. I'm not buying it. Those, barbecue parties, kids education stories, big houses, big cars, big stomachs, management position and overtime work. Simple, I'm not buying their frustrations and their lifestyle.


What to say about the women of my age? Not much. The same sad fat story. I think women over 45 need a special diet plan. Women need fewer calories and large amounts of vitamins and minerals than men. The hormonal changes and menopause make them mentally unstable. They are slowly dropping sex out of their life, but let's not go there.


I see life for what it is: a mere rollercoaster of ups and downs, chronic search for happiness, always dissatisfied, always pretending I am happy and successful. I slip into this life that is laid out for me the way a foot slip in the shoe. I decide nothing, there is no choice, I live this by default. I don't know any better, and I don't know the reason why I don't know any better.


Yes, I do yoga, read "I am That" and other classical spiritual literature. I am trying to be aware, to hold onto I AM, to observe myself, I believe that we create our own reality. I look at the world through the glasses of my own thoughts. Right?


I have come to the point of understanding and I openly say - Hey, wait a minute, this is nuts! I want to get out of this merry-go-round and get moving. Spiritual awakening! Huraaaay!!! Peace, love, and joy! Global consciousness arising, the planet is shifting, gurus and spiritual teaching business flourish, click $15 to listen to the latest Satsang online... only $15, you save $5.


If you don't know which road to take, you don't pay attention to the crossroads... The unexamined life, said Socrates, is not worth living. That is some serious shit. It almost offends. Who lives a conscious, examined life? Where are the people living examined lives? Lives worth living? I do the examination of my life and I see it for what it is.


If I take Socrates to mean the stagnated, home-work-home, repetitive life is not worth living, then he is saying that most people's lives are not worth the bother. And that should be a bit of encouragement a good news for me. If others are the same as me then it not so bad. 


The universe will give me whatever I want. That is how it works. It can't be otherwise. I don't have to be worthy, but I do have to know what it is that I want. Christmas is almost here. New Year will arrive soon. I have canceled my vacation. The November yoga challenge is going on and I am doing everyday practice. 


Society has taught you not to see wisdom and experience in old age. So when the inevitable truth of aging confronts you in the mirror you don’t react well. Consequently, the ultimate compliment has become, “Oh, you don’t look your age!” Fuck that! I am not scared of getting old.


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