Monday, March 19, 2018

If this is so pathetic... then call me a loser ❤️

I always wanted to live alone. When I was married I had a fantasy about living in my own apartment having no one to report what I do and why I am doing it. But I was married and I was living married life, wondering why I am hurrying from work, just to sit and watch TV... This all changed when I got divorced. I left my family life forever and I rented an apartment and I started living on my own. Alone. I never regretted a bit for my divorce.

I am not like most people, I never daydream about winning the lottery. I have no interest in having a big house with a beautiful pool or a new car, larger TV, the latest fashion clothes. I don't sit around and fantasize about living in Florida beach. I am satisfied with what I have.

Happiness is so interesting, because of different ideas about what it is and how to get it. It’s also no surprise that it’s the top priority for people and they are so naturally very obsessed with it. For me, the happiness is to be physically active, to do daily yoga practice, to sleep well and to be conscious...

I live in a small, cozy, 550 sq.f. apartment and I am 20 minutes to my work place in downtown Toronto. The commute to the office has a surprisingly powerful impact on our happiness. We do this twice a day, five days a week and it is not so surprising that commute time influence our happiness.

One day you will wake up and there won’t be any more time to do the things you’ve always wanted to do. Do it now. - Paulo Coelho

This year I want to do something different. Really. I booked vacation from June 3 to 17, 14 nights at Cancun, Mexico and I am going alone. I know, it may sound utterly crazy to go for the fourteen nights vacation by myself, without anyone to come along.

I need a vacation. Of course I do. Problem is, everyone I know is either too cheap or too poor or too busy to come with me. It takes major guts to go on vacation like this, but this time, it will be just me. It sounds scary. Will I get lonely? The risks are great, but so are the rewards. More than likely, I’ll come home with great stories for my next posts.

UPDATE: Yesterday, Tuesday 20, 2018, I bought two tickets for the same resort, for my friend Puraman and his son. They will go with me. He will return me half of money the other half is my present. He is a good friend of mine and we will have a great time in Cancun...

Last year my daughter surprised me with a question am I going to live with someone or would I prefer to stay alone. I did not know what to answer. I got this same question from my father the other day. It is a very good question and belongs to long-term goal, which I, unfortunately, do not have.

I told her that I am now in a situation and all probability is that I will stay alone for the rest of my life. I told her that I have nothing against being with another person, waking up together, loving each other, enjoying long conversations, cuddling and watching movies, going to work and sharing everything, well living together.

But I have no such person in my life. My girlfriend is in a different stage of life.

I realized that I will remain alone. And that is okay. 😍

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