Wednesday, July 11, 2018

I am writing for entertainment only

If you don't follow my blog but you came here from the Facebook "I Love Ashtanga Yoga" and "YOGA" groups or "Spiritual Consciousness" Google Plus group and you just read one single article, you might wonder what I'm actually writing about. Well, I'm writing about awakening, yoga and daily life. I also write about experiences in relationships and online dating, which I abandon at present time because nothing is happening there...

To be quite honest I'm just having a fun.

I've stopped asking you to like my Facebook page because I realized that if you find me charming it means that you’re at present in a good mood, nothing else! I understand very well that if you like one post, you will be disappointed by the next one so what is the point of liking this blog?

Writing a blog today is not easy. Everything is already written and all ideas are out there. The google search just about anything imaginable will reveal thousands of articles. It can be confusing at a time. Anyway, my post What Does It Mean To Be An Ashtangi has been published by Elephant Journal. Nice, the editor changed "you" to "us" they say they do not like direct writing. It is okay, I like writing directly to you and I don't use "us" too often.

Don't believe everything you read on the internet. That included news, articles, scientific and statistical reports... blog posts, especially blogs. People are writing all kinds of bullshit. Take for example my own blog. It is a kill-the-time endeavor. I'm writing for entertainment only.

Life is ridiculous! I mean, you were born on certain date and until around 2 or 3 years old you didn't know yourself, and then suddenly "I am" notion appears and you start knowing yourself. If you lucky enough not to go to kindergarten, very soon in school, you will find out that the life is some serious shit.

As a kid I wondered about many questions. 

Sadly, to this day, I did not found answers due to repetition, grades, discipline, useless tasks, socializing... step by step you became a person with desire to please others around you. Is that your mother or father or your kids, spouse, or boss, it does not matter. You live your life for others until you became too old to handle the world and you finally die, again returning to the state of not knowing "yourself". Wow... is this ridiculous or not?

By living your life, every single day you are faced with a million little things that encourage you to take the life seriously. You are so self-centered so many things bother you. I am free to say that your life is nothing but one frustration after another.

When I say that you are taking the life too seriously, I mean that you're turning everyday situations into problems, constantly on the lookout for shit to complain about and worrying about a bunch of things that simply do not matter. You bare needs are a place to sleep, something to wear and to have two meals a day. Everything else is luxury to please your vanity.

Anyway, back to my childhood questions... The first question was: Do other people exist when I am not in direct contact with them? I, as center of universe have all kind of relationships. I play my role as a father, brother, boyfriend, friend, lover, co worker, neighbor etc.. What if all these people that I know are there only as far as I am paying attention to them, when I am in a direct contact to them. Interesting question.

The second question was even more mysterious: How can I leave something as a reminder of this life to my next life? And that brings me to third question: Did I left a reminder from previous life for this life? Did I? What that can be? I find the fact that I don't remember previous lives to be very cruel.

Next question that often came on my mind was: What if dreams are more real, than what I perceive to be my waking life? What if waking life is also just a fantasy.

Silly me, I will never find answers on these and other interesting questions. It is useless to ponder about it but I like it. If you talk about this to other people I may be labeled as a freak. Truth and the world are two completely different things, and your world is distorted by your beliefs about what it is and what it should be. And yes, the world plays around your excessive pride in your appearance, qualities, abilities and achievements. And I don't blame you! You’ve been lied to your entire life.

Everything in this world, including your sense of yourself, is FAKE. 

You are fake, your world, aspirations and desires, your family, friends, neighbors, teachers, idols... your country, your job, your interests, striving, hopes  and everything else... are one layer of lies on the top of another.

You live your life just for one reason - to see through this pile of shit, to see falseness of everything. Instead you make your life serious by setting all kinds of goals - to finish prestigious university, to visit Paris, to see the Eiffel Tower, to complete this asana, to run a marathon, to swim with dolphins, to become rich, to be your own boss, to own a mansion, to drive a Corvette, to find true love - the list, mostly mundane and predictable, is endless.

Unfortunately, this is what society wants from you. You live the life where goals, timelines, and deadlines are normal thing. Society tells you that setting and achieving is the only way to lead a fulfilling life, and thus the only way to be truly happy, and they say, you also need to enjoy the process in between - the “journey,” they call it.

You're on the journey following "Work Hard, Dream Big" so you have no time for introspection of your life, no time to think what do you really need and to see your real position. I'm not here to open your eyes. I don't give a damn about what you think but I do ask you - don't read my posts with everyday seriousness. I'm not writing for your "common sense" so you might like the post on Facebook.

I am writing because I am straightforward. There is nothing here to be understood. With my articles, I'm NOT trying to set you free. I'm only telling you that your life is a lie, see it for yourself. If I'm not so convincing, so what? You will continue living your wonderful life just as you did before.

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