Wile E. Coyote

Here I am, July 9th, 2019, and I am ready to press forward. Daily yoga practice! In July I have had 5 practices and I feel energized to start a new one immediately after I post this. I've stopped running after illusion, thinking that something good will come out of it and that I will be blessed with something that I cannot even define it.

However, this post is not only about me but it is also about YOU. Please allow me to introduce you to yourself...

Your name is Wile E. Coyote, The Supergenius. Now, don't try to get away! You are much more than you think you are, more cunning, faster, and smarter in any sense, and you are a real genius. I know, hardly you can pass the beginning of any post, but try my darling, read it to the end...

If you stand aside and carefully observe, you may see that your life is just like a cartoon, and you're everything, from a Tasmanian devil who can spin into a twister to a rabbit who can noisy quarrel with a hunter. But most of the time you resemble a figure of Wile E. Coyote - the calamitous figure who has been desperately trying and spectacularly failing to catch his desire. Just like poor Wile E. Coyote you can never count on your plans...

The most important thing in life is to be conscious human being, to be aware of self and to be considerate for others. That may sound strange to you, you may come to conclusion that there is something more important in this life from just being aware. No. Nothing of more important than that.

On this infinite sense of presence, your emotions, feelings and thoughts have came. That is your cartoon, just bunch of false things. In truth, you're peace and happiness, the only permanency in this restlessness called life. Everything is time and only You Are out of time.

I think that is what you want. Happiness. But here lies the catch. Seeking your peace is a problem. The running is a problem. For you as you are now, the happiness is not an original thing, it is secondary, it is a byproduct of something else. I am afraid that you just seeking satisfaction and consequently your happiness depends entirely on your imagination. The imagination is a big problem.

It’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. Simply change your point of view, whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, it is your life. You can make the best or the worst of it. I wish you make the best of it. And I wish you see things that wonder you. I wish you feel love you never felt before. I wish you meet crazy people with a different points of view. I wish you live a life you’re proud of, if you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.

You lost yourself in your marriage, in your kids, work, in senseless career and in search for happiness. Instead of living the life as it comes you're constantly running to suit others, desperately trying to maintain a good outlook of what others think of you.

The others aren’t at fault. Everything that is in front of you is there because you, and you alone, put it there. How could you possibly expect anyone to value yourself when they are confused and distorted mess themselves.

Realize the reason for your constant search for happiness, you are not living the life for yourself, you are living it for other people and you're doing a pretty bad job of it. If you want to change, first you have to see your real position and in doing so, you need to figure out how to change. It will not happen overnight. It will take you couple years to get rid of some false ideas. And the key is to be aware.

I stopped being interested in my marriage and eventually, on the initiative of my ex divorce happened. My marriage ended for good. In two weeks I left our home and I started new life. I deeply wanted it. I saw all the wrong things in my marriage. I started living alone and couple months after, I realized that nothing was out of reach and it was up to me to take control of my life and that anything was possible. Instead of crashing and burning I eagerly absorbed new things. Six months after divorce I went to St. Marten with a new girlfriend.

Instead of excusing or blaming anyone for my breakup of marriage, I allowed things to fall naturally into place. After six years of my divorce, I was realized that my new life is not what I really want. I was stumbling over the same problems over and again.

I discovered that when I am in the present moment, I am far less likely to keep tripping up. Although I still do wrong tings, I'm rectifying things sooner and understand the reasons behind the mistakes. I also have learned that I will always, always make mistakes, regardless of how much I learn because of simple reason of my forgetfulness of who really I am.

I'm writing this blog, describing the people that have strongly resonated with me and what have I learned from them... Nisargadatta Maharaj, Ranjit Maharaj, Jed McKenna, U.G. Krishnamurti, Bukowski, Gurdjieff... I quote them often and I try to remember their sayings. I use this blog to motivate me, to help me stop running after my imagination and to be conscious being.

It is up to you to convince yourself to these words. Living unconsciously as in a dream you've attracted all kinds of wrong people and rubbish into your life. Made a conscious decision to stop filling your head with negativity, first of all about yourself. You're not unique, different, you are not something, YOU ARE NOTHING. Enjoy that. It is freedom.

Can you, just for a moment, honestly think long and hard about those that you love and those that love you. Let them know, show them your love, get close to them. Don't take people for granted and assume they already knew their place in your life. Made a conscious decision to love openly whoever you chose to and let them know that, with actions rather than just words.

It is true, You're living a lie, a hilarious cartoon, so stop living it according to the expectations of others. Mother, father, wife, lover.. boss, coworker, friend... you've seen that you could be whoever and whatever you chose to be. Those that truly love you will accept you all the same and those are the only ones that really matter in your life.

Life free from judging is wonderful. Don't take yourself so seriously, stop taking people seriously. Someone, somewhere will always disapprove your words regardless of how hard you try. Stop trying to please anyone.

Believe in yourself and live life as the best as you can truly don't giving a fuck about opinions of other people. Realize fully that YOU ARE NOTHING. It is liberating and refreshing and it's simply the best and most loving thing I can ever do for you. I let you go now.... Wile E. Coyote, The Supergenius.