I have no schedule to follow

I think the writings about ashtanga yoga at present time are not so interesting read. What is there to write about? I am doing my practice, daily, but not at the regular schedule, I do it sometimes in the morning, other times in the afternoon and tonight I've done it at midnight.

I have no schedule to follow. I sleep when I feel like it, I go out to buy groceries and then I return home. But last night I was out to meet a very nice woman, we had bottle of vine at her place and I spent night there. I met her on match.com, she is from my country. We texted each other and we talked on the phone for a couple of days and last night I visited her.

We went to sleep at 4 am, slept very little, I left her place around 9 am. Is that my new relationship, I don't know. Maybe. Maybe not. I like her but the present period is not so good for dating.

I took a subway to her place. I was the only one passenger in the train. In Toronto, during night, the streets are empty and you can feel the fear in the air. The fear is more contagious than coronavirus. And yesterday was no lack of fear, the media is throwing it at us in an enormous amount. That will not stop. But you already know that.

Today in the afternoon, I went to buy booze in LCBO and I waited outside the store for half an hour to go inside. People are drinking a lot these days. Me too. I drink a lot and I sleep a lot. I slept today from 3 pm to 10 pm. I did yoga at midnight and now I am at the computer screen telling you all this.

Why am I telling you this? Because I feel sad. I feel sad for all of you who read this. You are not prepared for these days, you are not accustomed to be lonely and to be, just to be without thoughts, doing nothing. I spoke with my friends and they told me just in one week they have already watched the most TV series on Netflix. That's crazy.

The people are cracking down under pressure of self-isolation. I have seen today people either singing or swearing so loudly outside in High Park. They have to show their frustration, somehow. There were so many people in High Park today afternoon, I have feeling they will close the park soon.

The spring has sprung and no one noticed. Difficult, sad and frustrating times. I am doing fine. Saving money. I am not spending anything for going out, there is no "out" these days, all restaurants and bars are closed. I have not received anything from Air Canada Vacation for my cancelled trip on March 25, 2020. I am waiting for the letter from them. I requested the refund.

My dear friends, unfortunately, I have nothing to tell you to cheer you up. This is just a beginning of dark times. Somehow you have to learn to be alone with yourself. Calm and contended without anxious desire to be somewhere else.

It is 2:30 am, already Sunday... I am not sleepy and I will not go to bed for another 2 hours but I wish you good and safe night. Stay well, stay healthy.