Monday, August 10, 2020

Life is a long dream

Yoga does not remove us from the reality or responsibilities of everyday life but rather places our feet firmly and resolutely in the practical ground of experience. We don’t transcend our lives; we return to the life we left behind in the hopes of something better. ~ Donna Farhi

Did you ever have a dream that you are sitting peacefully? Well, I don't think so. It is the nature of all dreams that the characters therein are so busy.

Life is nothing but a long dream

I cannot stop running from here to there and back again. Always on the lookout for something more, different, better, I see that I'm getting nowhere at all. And I'm getting absolutely nowhere faster and faster and with more and more cleverness all the time.

Lost in my mind’s imagined world of judgments, beliefs, and opinions, I'm literally caught in a waking dream. In some days my dream is a nightmare, for other days some imagined temporary heaven. But for most of the time it is something in between.

Yesterday, I met my ex girlfriend and we had a nice time. She slept over at my place. She left around 9 am. I have left to myself for another day of activities I'm suppose to do and get things done. It all starts with morning coffee and a fresh blog post. Then sweaty yoga practice.

I see life for what it is: ups and downs, chronic search for happiness, always dissatisfied, always pretending I am happy and successful. I slip into this life that is laid out for me the way a foot slip in the shoe. I decide nothing, there is no choice, I live the life by default. I play the roles I am born to.

I don't know any better, and I don't know the reason why I don't know any better.

The world is exactly the way it is. Nothing less, nothing more. "Less" and "more" comes from my imagination. As long as I'm searching for happiness I will be dissatisfied. I search for happiness because I'm not contented in the way as I am.

There is this feeling that there is something more interesting that I can do with myself, more meaningful, more purposeful than my existence is today. This feeling of dissatisfaction is my main delusion.

And the song for the day, the sexiest video ever... Destination Unknown, Alex Gaudino

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