Monday, August 3, 2020

Why I didn't have more kids?

As a small kid I wondered what is the reason people get married. I was a good observer and I noticed that not a single family is happy. As a kid I could not understand why so many men and women are living together when they hate each other. I observed the same thing in my family and the families of my relatives and in the neighborhood.

As a kid I vowed that I will never get married and I will never have children. I think people make kids without ever thinking about them, without any responsibility for the future of those kids. Very early in my life, I noticed that everyone born here, on this planet, is a slave.

I remember exact time when my daughter was conceived. After wedding, my ex and me were under pressure from my parents to have a baby. Every morning was the same question - is there something new? And under those circumstances, one day we decided to have a baby.

My daughter was born nine months later and my life changed completely. I feel a tremendous responsibility for her. I would divorce my ex a long before I did but I was always thinking about my daughter. My ex did not worked and I did not know how she will support herself.

When you take a moment and look around at the world, things are really messed up. Just watch the 6 o’clock news. What will you see? News about coronavirus, lockdown riots, conflicts, deaths, illness...

Sure, the mainstream media strategy is to sell bullshit and keep you focused on such things, but besides that, if you look closely, it reveals something about the state of awareness of humanity as a whole.

Just look at us. Everything is backwards, everything is upside down. Doctors destroy health, lawyers destroy justice, psychiatrists destroy minds, scientists destroy truth, major media destroys information, religions destroy spirituality and governments destroy freedom. - Michael Ellner

This quote is a simplified way of looking at the state of humanity. I can freely say the whole humanity experiment is failing, and main reason for that is profit. We destroy everything in the name of the profit.

I did not want to bring my kid to this living condition but I did and I'm not so proud of it. I think she deserved better than this planet and I feel responsible for bringing her here. I did not wanted to have more kids.

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Joke - A glass of water

Once upon a time there was a guy who enjoyed his life.

He was in early 30's, he had BMW and he was going out every night with different girls. He had his own company for office repairs and he worked 3-4 hours a day, just to cover his expenses. He enjoyed his life immensely.

His mother was worried for him, Whenever she saw him she used to tell him - My son, you have to be married by now. You need to have children. Who will look after you when you are old?

My son, Who will bring you a glass of water on your death-bed?

Slowly, bit by bit, mother's words started coming to man's mind especially the sentence about glass of water on his death-bed. So he finally found the right girl and got married. He stopped going out every day. Now he enjoyed the company of his wife.

After one year his wife gave birth to a baby boy. After the second year of marriage he got a baby girl. Now he start working full hours. He needed money to support family. He stopped going out completely. Their house become small for the new family so he bought a bigger house. He got enormous mortgage to pay off so he worked like a donkey. He sold his BMW and bought a minivan And he always remembered that question - Who will bring him a glass of water on his death-bed?

Years were passing, he become older and older.

He knew only for work and more work. Vaguely he remembers his old days with nostalgia and sigh. In meantime he got grandchildren. The years were passing quickly. He became an old, tired and disappointed man.

And one day he was laying in the bed for the last few hours before his death. He was surrounded with his family, the son, daughter, grandsons and granddaughters. Everyone was around him. In his last moments he was thinking about his life and he said: Fuck, I am not even thirsty.

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