In 20s you hope something will come.

Whatever life you have, in 30s you are always talking about truth. Whatever you occupy yourself with, you think that it leads somewhere, moves you toward some goal, that there is meaning in it.

When you rich 40s, you think you already know so many "truths", like it was toilet paper or something and you got a supply in the closet.

But what you learn, as you go beyond 50, is there ain't no truth. You clearly see that the meaning, once you cherished so preciously, is just a creation of your imagination where everything is real...  but not true.

In 50s you are no longer certain what your purpose is.

Your parents, relatives and friends start disappearing from your life. Seeing the dear people vanishing from your world, you may feel somewhat alienated, what drove you in the 30s and 40s no longer drives you in 50s.

Yup, all there is is a bullshit, pardon my vulgarity here. Layers of it. One layer of bullshit on top of another. And what you do in life after 50, you pick the layer of bullshit that you prefer and that's your bullshit, so to speak...

What I have learned so far, in a gradual manner with lot of mistakes, is that by being alone I have left the ordinary life behind and that I must adopt a new way of life if I am going to survive. I have to proceed strategically with a great care for my well being.

I am wondering how many of you think like me. You live moment by moment but sometimes you have to stop and look what have you lived, in its totality, to make sense of general direction.

What is your life anyway?

Listen to parents. Go to school. Get a job. Toil through eight or nine hour days. Get married. Make kids. Get divorced. Go home to an empty house and eat leftovers while watching re-runs. Go to work. Go home. That's it.... and then you die. Well not much I would say.

Do you know who is Jiddu Krishnamurti?

Just briefly, he was a great spiritual teacher, a saint. His life story is quite fascinating. As a kid, he was roaming barefoot on the streets of Calcutta when he was discovered by Annie Besant, the one of the leader of Theosophical Society. She moved him to London where he was groomed to be the new World Teacher. Ten years later, he rejected this title and withdrew from the Theosophy organization behind it. He lived his entire life smiling and giving lectures...

During the one of such lectures, Krishnamurti asked the audience if they wanted to know his secret. The lecture hall went silent, and everyone leaned forward... "You see," he said, "I don’t give a shit." (I’m giving a little spin here, this was not his vocabulary. He said “You see, I don’t mind what happens.”)

That's it, my dear friends, the real secret of happy life. Don't give a shit about anything or anyone.

This society drill into your head, day and night - people who made it! Made what? Maybe they become rich. So what? They are still or even more frightened and confused, they are puppets like the rest of this modern society. What does it mean, "They made it"? Having a lot of money, a big house and an expensive car have nothing to do with being a success. Do you call that making it?

What "success" really means?

Answer for yourself, I just want to tell you that you are being cheated all your life, living in the world of false beliefs, false preconceptions, having the personality based on imagination.

You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. You know, school, then college, then work, fuck that. And fuck the air force academy. If I wanna fly, I'll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest. - Dwayne from Little Miss Sunshine movie

You give a shit and that's why you are unhappy, stressed and depressed. You create, project, maintain your own image of reality.

Have you seen them? Articles, books and internet pages about how to get rich, how to change your habits, how to change yourself from a looser (as you are now) and become a winner (something in near or no so near future). Those articles and books are designed to give you a bad feeling about yourself. Nothing else!

Take this simple truth about life given to you by a great saint Krishnamurti. Don't complicate the simple words. You are pushed to believe that you have to succeed in whatever you do, you follow ridiculous ideals which you will never attain. You follow lies in the name of truth, and display enormous ignorance in the name of knowledge.

You are convinced that things come from the outside of yourself and that somehow you must change them. So you are always one step behind, watching the events as they recede. Turn around, face the events as they come to you.

...and this is what you need to know.

The life is a dream, your dream, your show

When you demand nothing of the world when you want nothing, seek nothing, expect nothing, then LIFE will come to you uninvited and unexpected.

It is your world. There is no one else here, just you, and nothing is being withheld from you. You are completely on your own. Everything is available to you.

No one else has anything you need. No one else can lead you, pull you, push you or carry you. No one else is necessary to your happiness.

The life is your dream because you are asleep, you can wake up. If you understand that, you will understand that this is the best news you could possibly receive. 😉