
One thing is for sure... Life goes on.
I'm going to simplify my
life. If I can be simple in my expectations, goals, and tasks, I will not only
be happier, I will also get more done and be more successful. I will focus on
one single task and that is being awake.
The funny thing about
focusing on one goal is that it seems that I'm neglecting all the others
aspects of my life, but there are really nothing in this world else except
self-realization worth pursuing. And when I focus on my goal, magically the
other aspects of my life improve.
I'm surrounded by distractions,
such as work, going out, text messages, emails, Facebook. I must learn to
manage my time, and get things done.
Most people sit around
whining about their miserable life, and then they wonder why nothing good ever
happens to them. I don't want to over analyze and over think.
My
task of self-realization is of such importance and seriousness, it demands
such intensity of efforts, that to attempt it in my old, lazy, usual way of
behaving is impossible.
In order to fulfill my task, the life as it
is lived so far is finished. I've become aware that my ordinary life has been
forever left behind, that self-realization is indeed difficult affair.
Starting
from today, in my daily life I'm going to set strict rules of my new behavior.
I know that self-importance and self-pity are my worst enemies. I need to
change my behavior in such a way to eliminate this individual self that have
rob me from power.
From now on, at all times I should be ready and
aware. I will never contact anyone. I will not send text message to initiate
conversations or call anyone. If I receive the messages I will reply but no
there will be no initiative from my side.
You see, I have learned
to think that my actions are important. I've looked at myself taking myself as
something. Not anymore. I'm going to replace the importance of myself with
laughing at myself.
I'm going to live my life by acting, not by
thinking about acting.
Spring is here. It is a great opportunity to
change my daily schedule. So from today I will be following my new
schedule:
6:00 AM - Get up
7:00 AM - Yoga (60 min)
8:00 AM - Meditation (30
min)
6:30 PM - Walking (90 min)
8:00 PM - Weights (30 min)
8:30 PM - Recapitulation (30 min)
9:30 PM
- Reading (30 min)
10:00 PM - Sleep
Nothing
is important anymore. I have no honor, no dignity, no name, no country but
only life to be lived and under this circumstances I have no real ties to
anyone.
I'm not concerned about liking people or with being liked
myself. I will not waste my energy by worrying about such things.
I'm
going to be dispassionate, and have no compassion for anybody. I have no
business following people in their up and downs. To have compassion means that
I want people to be like me. The hardest thing in the world is to leave the
people and let them be as they are.
From now on, I consider any
kind of activity with people, no matter how minute or unimportant, as a
battlefield. In each battle I'm going to perform my best, being at ease and
open.