I am 57 and I'm alone. My girlfriend is far away so, here I'm... alone.

Being alone” is not a bad thing. Generally looking, I'm anti-social and actually I enjoy this state of affairs. At present, I'm really myself. I'm not spending time processing thoughts and feelings of others. Being alone is the best time to turn my focus on what I really want... and I want to go to Malta... I'm working on it.

No hope that something better will come

Whoever told you that with age you will become smarter lied to you. You were young and stupid and then you are not young anymore.

I really don't like empty hopes. Overly optimistic people have no clue how the real world works. They are totally soft and weak-minded. They stick their heads in the sand and ignore reality thinking happy thoughts while doing nothing.

On another hand, I am not a pessimist. I don't expect only bad outcomes, I am not gloomy, joyless and unhopeful. Well, scratch unhopeful. Although I went through so many disappointments, I don't expect the misfortune in my future.

Neither a pessimist nor an optimist, I am a realist

I have no clue if being a realist is something good to acquire, but I ended up here, in the middle of this. What does it mean to be a realist anyway?

I'm not downplaying the good things in life and trying to see the bad as inevitable. I try to make no prejudice for what people believe and how they behave, I try to be impartial, with no judgments. Seldom I succeed.

No really, the attitude is the thing. I'm a realist, and I'm here to set the record straight. 

Forget those glasses that can be half empty or half full, the glass could be filled to the brim or emptied to the last drop, it depends how thirsty you are, that’s how unpredictable life is. I make sense of the world, and that’s why I have advantage over general population.

On this planet everything get spoiled

I'm going to tell you a secret of life. Things in life tend to go their own way just up to the certain point and then a little twist happen and things start to deteriorate and again events go until next little twist. In the end, if additional effort is not asserted, the result of what was planned became quite different.

Take for example musical scale. The frequencies of vibration of the seven notes of the octave are: Do, Re, Mi, Fa, So, La, Si. In this scale, there are 5 “whole tones”, and two smaller tones, so called half-tones Mi-Fa and Si-Do. It is natural representation that things do not go straight and that some other work needs to be done in order to achieve things as they are planned.

In any work where you wish certain outcome you have to recognize the "twists" and put additional effort. Let’s be honest; it’s great to always have a cheerful outlook, but it’s downright stupid to think that’s the only possible outcome. Be prepared for anything.

Don’t trust people

Quite honestly, I don't trust people. Once upon a time I was different and I trusted them and that turned out to be one of the biggest mistake of my life.

Do you think it’s so cute when you meet someone who automatically trusts everyone and believes everyone is full of kindness? Or do you think they’re incredibly naïve? 

I'm open here on this blog simply because I don't have any reason to protect my personality. Rather, I want to get rid off my personality completely. And naively I believe that others are like me until I discover that not everyone is good inside.

Do you want me to change myself? I worked hard to come at this point and I will not go back. I am being realistic about life and the future, and I know that it helps me get through each day with as few complications as possible.

... keep it simple. 😎