sunrise from my balcony


Life's not about expecting, hoping and wishing, it's about doing, being and becoming. It's about the choices you've just made, and the ones you're about to make, it's about the things you choose to do - today. It's about what you're going to do after you finish reading this. - Anonymus


My friend, I used to live my life without goals and expectation. Still, I don't except anything better than this what I have right now. 

Have you ever set a goal, achieved it, became content? And then what happened? 

After that you went looking for the next thing. It’s fascinating how quickly your life adjust to searching. You get what you want and, soon enough, start wondering for something else. You quickly adjust your fulfilled desires, constantly creating new ones.... you always want more.

So it is really very simple. You want more. People who have one million dollars want ten, people who have a happy family want more happiness and people who have fame want more fame. You are desiring more so you are always frustrated and unhappy.

You spend a great deal of effort maintaining the illusion of your life. You work very hard to make it as solid as possible and never venture too close to the meaning of it. Otherwise you would see right through it and find yourself looking into a mirage. If you pay close attention, you may see your life for what it really is... the great illusion.

Everyone around you work very hard to pull you into this living dream. You may get counseling, take some  medications, go to the movie, drink wine and talk about spirituality and other high things or you may go to shopping spree... 

Everyone around you will do all they can to help you maintaining your normal self. In an insane world of people sleep walking through an illusory life, being "normal self" means you have to be insane. You have to go around being hypnotized sheep.

However, there are so many contradiction in your life that it’s easy to be caught up by one if you’re not careful. Suddenly you may not find meaning or values in the life you've created for yourself. You may feel waves of sadness, emptiness, meaninglessness, alienation and anxiety. You might look around and wonder what you’re doing here.

And you suddenly don’t feel a connection to anything. Nothing gives you pleasure. There is nothing to strive for, nothing you can get or experience to fix it. The pointlessness of it all is so obvious and inescapable.

When that happens, this world become a really confusing place to be. So where is the problem? Why this depression happens? Is there a way out of this meaninglessness?

Your problems come from your idea that the world is true. You have imagined significance and you take the world to be true because you want that you are true. You assume that if the world is true then you are also true. This self-importance is the main reason for the feelings of depression, sadness, emptiness and anxiety.

There is nothing true in this world. Impermanence is only permanent "thing" here. The meaning of everything is the meaning you assign to it. You are who you say you are, and your experience is what you say it is. This is how you have to look at the illusions of life.

Take at easy, slowdown and stop running after all this nonsense? Just like a mirage, you run after that. One day you will stop, the sun goes off and the mirage goes off. And you will feel so unlucky not getting the water. But the water was never there. You want happiness from others, well, nobody can give you that.

Unless you forget yourself, you won't be happy.