Now, I feel much better. After entire week of bragging about my dissatisfaction, yesterday I cut the shit and I started different life. I re-set my old schedule which from now on, I will strictly follow. I did yoga at 6 pm and went to gym around 8 pm. 

Last night I watched a movie, online - "Showgirls". It was a story about a woman that starts from the beginning, from nothing in Las Vegas. I liked it. Went to sleep around 10:30 pm and woke up now... it is 2 am. I'm drinking coffee and continuing in my direction of self-realization.

Do you wan to join me?

It's all about beliefs

We stick to our beliefs, ideas of good and evil, social mores. We set up hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. In the process we have made ourselves covetous, greedy and coward.

Unfortunately, on top of that we nourished ourselves with fears.

We're so self-important. So arrogant. We think we are rational and logical beings, we talk about politics, spirituality, meditation and other high matters and we know everything...

But, I'm quite certain, the entire humanity, yes we, we're going away. Pack your shit guys, we're going away. And we won't leave much of a trace on this planet.

That is the fair thing about our life, we won't leave a trace at all. What could we possibly leave here? We have made this planet a giant shopping mall. The buy and sell mentality has squeezed out the last reminders of our consciousness. Mankind, driven by greed, has became extremely sick.

The crooked political system, distorted entertainment industry, false news and advertisements, phony medical and pharmaceutical industry, dishonest food industry, travel and working conditions, constant wars and lost of basic human rights are our world.

No one wants to be free

Everyone is a slave and the slave tends to dream of becoming a master rather than of gaining freedom. The crux of the matter on which the whole ploy of the humanity rests is man's suggestibility, complacency and tendency to wishful thinking.

The present situation of mankind is not a moralistic punishment for a fall of humanity. It is a natural consequence of a state of affairs, just as it is a natural consequence of being a chicken to sometimes get eaten by a fox.

Awake, now! 

Awakening is a complete, thorough understanding. The real you does not die, the unreal you (your personality) never lived.

All is illusion, the sense of 'I' is illusion, so whatever the 'I' does is also illusion. Remove the name and the shape and nothing remains. In final Reality there is no 'you', no 'I', no mind and no thought. That is our natural state.

A clear cut understanding of a these things is awakening. Reality is not to be achieved, it is already here. After this thorough understanding, nothing is required.

Understand that everything is illusion. Reality stands beyond knowledge. Forget everything and immediately you are your Self, in this very moment. There is nothing to reject and nothing to gain because everything is nothing.

You are the Self without self. Understand that 'myself' (personality) is garbage. People don't understand that illusion is nothing. Understand the process of thoughts creation and then the mind doesn't remain. Not having personality is the highest understanding.

The Ranjit Maharaj said - The one who doesn't care about God, who doesn't care for the illusion and doesn't care for anybody reaches Reality. Caring for others has nothing to do with you. Go to the depth of yourself and you will find it.

We don't exist. When we don't exist, then why we care for others? Others don't exist too. It is our love for the world that keeps us away from Reality. When we understand the illusion as an illusion we will stop being fooled by it. This is the true 'understanding'. Why waste time running after the unreal?

If we want to realize our Self, we must devote our entire life to It. Otherwise, what is the use of life? So be fearless. Personality has no real existence, the world has no existence.