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In the middle of this madness I am trying to find my own way out. I'm not going to get depressed, comment on politics, get heated up or anything similar. I am going to keep my detachment from this world and proceed in my direction. Daily yoga practice is my way - bending, moving, folding, sweating. Exercise is the best way having clear and awake mind.

My real name is Zoran. In old Egyptian language "Ra" is the sun, "an" means rising. In Serbian language "Zora" is dawn. No wonder that my favorite thing is to get up early and enjoy sunrise.

The morning is quiet as the world still sleeping, the perfect time for some quiet sitting - focus, introspection, orientation. No kids yelling, no babies crying, no wife complaining, no television noise. I enjoy watching how the day slowly gets brighter, when the dark sky turns to light blue, when the brilliant colors of the sun paint over the sky. What a glorious moment! Really.

I have come to realization that purpose of life is to enjoy it but don't assume that enjoying life is the same as being happy. Sometimes you’re sad or angry or depressed, so be it. Don't fight it, like it’s wrong, just relax and ride it through until it’s over.

You live like this, sheltered, in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. Then you read a book… or you take a trip… and you discover that you are not living, that you are hibernating.

The symptoms of hibernating are easily detectable: first, restlessness. The second symptom (when hibernating becomes dangerous and might degenerate into death): absence of pleasure. That is all.

It appears like an innocuous illness. Monotony, boredom, death.

Millions live like this (or die like this) without knowing it. They work in offices. They drive a car. They picnic with their families. They raise children. And then some shock treatment takes place, a person, a book, a song, and it awakens them and saves them from death.

Some never awaken.

- Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

We follow others so our life is a bland little life where we just dozing through. What are we really doing? Nothing.

GO Nuggets GO 😁

In my case, I'm just watching events roll out in front of my eyes. What else can I do? Something more important going? Like what? My plans? My career? My self-image fantasies?

The truth is I have nothing to do. I am alive, but I don't really have anything to do while alive. I have no ambition, nowhere to go, no one to be or become. I don't need to distract myself from anything or convince myself of anything. There is nothing that I think isn't as it should be, and I have no interest in how others see me. I have nothing to guide me.

I don't seem to be too bored or unhappy about it, so I guess it sounds weird.

So my friend, you who had the patience to read this to the end...  be brave and have courage to accept yourself as nothing! Your personality and nice manners are cheating you. Be wicked, be brave, be drunk, be reckless, be dissolute, be despotic, be an anarchist, be anything you like... but don't follow common people.

Love yourself, accept yourself, forgive yourself, do anything you want... live fully, live passionately.

At the end of the day, there will be no excuses, no explanations, no regrets. Excuses, explanations and regrets are for the uninteresting, apologetic ones, for those afraid to laugh or cry, for those afraid to live and die.