I'm living life being more or less conscious

In less than two weeks I'm going to Rome, Italy, to meet my girlfriend. I'm looking forward to that, I'm missing her so much. We will spend 8 nights there. In mean time I'm living life being more or less conscious.

The weather last week in Toronto was nice. We had here a wonderful sunny and warm days. 

I followed my strict routine, daily yoga, walking and I added weights lifting, mostly for biceps muscles. I feel okay, this morning my weight went bellow 90 kg, the first time after almost 4 years. 

Despite good feelings for physical body I'm not satisfied with my spiritual life. 

Last week I went out on Thursday, Friday and Saturday, I spent more than $500 on food and drinks, got drunk, smoke a lot. There was no meditation and reading my spiritual stuff. So I need to get back to the basics.

On Friday I dump a large sum of money to my mortgage as a pre-payment and my mortgage is now in double digits. I'm expecting to pay off everything by the March 1, 2024. I will strive to save money for the mortgage and make one more pre-payment in July, that is the priority this year. The second thing is the travel.

Last week I went to Nordstrom store and bought shoes and 3 nice looking shirts. The Nordstrom is closing all stores in Canada and now they have 40% off on all items. They are some good deals.

I want to change my personal style, wear more shirts instead of t-shirts. 

58 years old, feeling good about my appearance

In this dream called daily life, the awakening is the passion that gives me a sense of purpose. If I lose it, I will not only lose the purpose but I will also lose myself. So I keep chasing my dream. That is the most important thing of my life.

I often lose myself in the labyrinth of daily life, in the long hours at work, in drinking, going out, reading daily news and in all kinds of other stupidities...

So I declare my willingness to continue chasing my dream. I am going to change my attitude towards my friends and the people in general. I will make a little distance from all of them, I'll be kind and humble but not too close to anyone... and that's all that matters.

After 4 years today I am bellow 90 kg

By reading my blog you may come to conclusion that my life is great and I have nothing to complain about... and you are quite right. Nevertheless, at this moment, I want to shift the course of my life towards spirituality. 

At age 58, I've reached a point when I just no longer fit in with the crowd. It is difficult for me to admit, but I must be honest, I'm too old for going out and clubbing. There is no reason I should go to clubs if everyone around me is my daughter's age. If you don’t see the problem then you have a problem.

Friday night, Mc Adam Place, Mississauga

Last week was all about drinking. I'm thinking for myself and I'm seeing my mistakes. What I'm not quite sure is this life my show, is it my dream or just randomly and loosely connected events. But honestly, who the fuck cares. 

I need to save money, smoke less, drink less and exercise more. The money monitoring should be put in place. I want to be more aware of my spending habits and I must try to spend less and save more.

Spring is here. Today in Toronto is 20 C and it feels really nice so I'll be rising earlier. So from today I'm starting a new "spring/summer" schedule:

5 am - wake up
7 am - yoga practice
6 pm - gym exercise
9 pm - sleep

Daily ashtanga yoga half-primary practice, 45 minutes long and once a week the full primary class is a must. I want to be without belly fat. I want to include daily gym exercise and walking as daily activities. I need physical movements. 

The Ashtanga yoga is a must.