Don't take life as something serious

My condo renovation project is underway. Yesterday they installed new countertop and new sink and faucet in bathroom. It looks really nice, clean and modern. Last week laminate flooring is done in bedroom. What is left is painting of the whole apartment.

I was thinking to paint myself but there are some areas of the bathroom walls that needs to be fixed - plastered and sanded before painting, it is a damage done by the removal of old countertop. So I will hire a professional painter and I will help him. 

Next couple of months I'll go into debt, I have no enough money to cover all the expenses coming my way. I have to use the line of credit. In July I need to pay the entire renovation, pay tickets to Cuba. Also, I need to pay the birthday present for my daughter, I bought her the newest Mac-Air laptop. In August HST corporate are coming.... etc. 

I was debt free for quite some time but now I see I have to borrow money. That's okay, I have nothing against the borrowing while I have a detailed plan how to return and get out of debt. I see clearly there will be no more travels this year, the Cuba is the last one.

I would like, my wish is, to make additional payment to my mortgage before its renewal on the 1st of November. To do that I cannot travel anywhere, I will not go to, Thessaloniki Greece, I will not look at the apartments there because I am not going to sell my condo. 

In the last couple of days I was reading about the life in Greece, and some things I did not please me, for example that I would feel there like a foreigner all the time. They don't accept people from outside easily. I don't like it and I think I will never learn Greek language. Bye, bye Thessaloniki.

My girlfriend will come in August and we will go to Varadero, Cuba for 10 nights. This year we traveled to Punta Cana, Dominican Republic and Rome, Italy. Not like last year but still, 3 exotic travels a year is quite enough.

I feel fine, much stronger since my left arm stopped hurting. I did 10 yoga practices in June and going to have more in July. I have lost almost 4 kg, my belly fat is less but there is still a room for improvement. 😉

Some people who read my blog, asked me why I'm telling all these intimate things about my love life, relationships, financial situation, daily life etc. They are very much concerned about their own privacy but I say - the privacy, what privacy? There is no such thing as privacy. 

Most people have a megalomaniac self obsession, strong character with a large ego doing everything in their power to grab things for and only for themselves. They are full for self-importance, some strange, for me unexplainable, self-dignity, so proud of what have they accomplished in their pity life. In my view they are ridiculous. Looking in their eyes you can see a wasted life, a miserable being on their way to death. 
It's now very common to hear people say, "I'm rather offended by that." As if that gives them certain rights. It's actually nothing more... then a whine. "I find that offensive." It has no meaning; it has no purpose; it has no reason to be respected as a phrase. "I am offended by that." Well, so fucking what. - Stephen Fry
I'm a transparent as much as I can be, I could be even more open but I'm not allowed to write. Some people could be offended. 😕

Every day you are faced with traps that encourage you to take life seriously. You are faced with all kinds of frustrations, turning everyday situations into problems, constantly on the lookout for shit to complain about and worrying about a bunch of things that simply do not matter.

You are very sensitive, your ego is huge and you cannot tolerate simple truth. You get offended by rain, by look, gesture, words... especially words. "I am feeling offended" is an epidemic spreading across the world.

And I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but you’re a carrier of the disease. It’s a mental condition whereby your ego grows up to the point where everything offends you. Symptoms may include hurt feelings, indignation, irritability, disappointment, grumpiness and an all-around allergic reaction to anyone who says or does something you don’t like. In one word - seriousness.
You try, you think, you plan, you work, and then there is no achievement. The thing that you desire never happens, it never comes. If life was a static, fixed thing - not dynamic and flowing - then you could achieve what you wanted, but then life would be a death. Life is life because it is dynamic, changing. You cannot predict its course, it is unpredictable. It is dynamic and flowing - always flowing nowhere.

If you are serious, then you cannot flow. Then you are frozen inside; then you become just a dead stone. Then there are resistances around you. You cannot melt, you cannot change as life changes. You have a fixed pattern, a fixed shape, and because of that shape you will resist change. Then you are not flowing with life, you are struggling against it. Seriousness creates frozen-ness, and frozen-ness creates struggle. 

- Life is Not Serious, Osho
The grand cosmic joke is that there is nowhere to go and nothing to do. What you're having at this precise moment is all there is. That's it!