Last night I watched The Game, 1997 movie with Michael Douglas in main role.
In brief the movie is about internal, psychological change. Nicholas Van Orton (Michael Douglas) is a successful banker who keeps everything to himself. His brother Conrad (Sean Penn) gave him an odd gift for his birthday, a real-life game which Nicholas reluctantly accepts. Initially harmless, the game grows increasingly personal, and Orton begins to fear for his life as he eludes agents from the mysterious game's organizers. With no one left to trust, his money gone and his death, Nicholas Van Orton finally finds answers for himself.
It is a great movie, it reminds me on the spiritual awakening.
Somewhere somebody said that most people lead lives of quiet desperation. For a better of understanding of why people lead such life, have a look no further but yourself. Once, a long time ago, that’s pretty much how I lived. It’s been 23 years since I started out on the spiritual journey of Self-Discovery. Since then I've changed so much and I come so far, it’s hard to remember exactly who I once was.
I know, just like Nicholas Van Orton, I was very ambitious, eager to make something of myself, and to get the best of life. I was pushy, loud, confident, in one word just an asshole. I was struggling with my beliefs and with no real sense of what really matters in life. I used to drive BMW, wear expensive clothes and I had no compassion towards others. However, all that was wrapped in the state of inner dissatisfaction. And that dissatisfaction with life was what I consider to be the most critical first step towards my spiritual journey.
Maybe it’s because it was my own first step, but I have reason to believe it’s a great place for anyone to begin. You begin by being total asshole and then you proceed step by step to find out that for yourself. Some people may be naturally interested in learning more about themselves and growing as person; however, they may find it difficult to see the ugly truth.
In my journey I read Gurdjieff and his Fourth Way. I sincerely practiced Self-Observation for several years. I encountered shock after shock about my own personality and my behavior. I discovered my inner world of lies, fears and frustrations. I discovered my own walking sleep.
Then I started to ask myself consciously questions like: Who am I? Where did I come from? What am I here for? Am I doer or just an actor? Am I at sleep all the time? How can I be awake? Where am I going? I started to reject questions of general society such as “what you do” and “what you have" and replaced them with with questions that get at the purpose and meaning of life.
The Game. It is on Netflix right now.
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