
May 4, 1980
Maharaj: You understand yourself as body-mind; therefore my problem is - how to make you understand.
Lord Krishna said, "All are my expressions." The mountain is of gold and a particle of that mountain is also gold. I am that mountain and every particle is myself. The entire beingness manifest is myself, and each being is a sample of myself. The knowledge "I Am" in each species is myself. The very life force - luminous, bright, radiant, indwelling principle is myself.
If anybody understands me totally and fully and most appropriately, that one gets the shelter in the shade of my benign being. The state of ajnani, the highest state, has transcended the beingness, but the beingness is still there, so together with the beingness is the Absolute - the deep blue, benign state, without eyes.
Knowledge takes rest in that deep blue, quiet, peaceful, benign shade. When that shade is shifted aside, then he sees the various manifestations in the form of universes and worlds. But when the shade is there, it is the deep, dark blue state, fully relaxed.
Questioner: Is Maharaj going to stop talking?
M. The talks will emanate provided someone worthy is there to put questions. I am nearing the end of my time. If any questions sprout, ask them.
Q: I want to stay here with Maharaj as long as possible.
M. Although you might go home, whatever has been planted, whatever you have received, is going to change you. You are completely possessed.
Q. I feel that. I am grateful that at the tag-end of my life I was brought here.
M. Your coming here was also spontaneous. It is very rare that someone has the good fortune to come here; having come here, if the planting is done, the sprouting will definitely take place. It may take time, but it will definitely take place.
Just as the beingness has appeared spontaneously, you don't know beforehand, now I am going to be - it has come about - so also the talks are coming spontaneously. This touch of "I Amness" is in each being; this beingness has that touch of love for the Absolute and it is a representation of the Absolute.
When you got yourself separated from the Absolute with this identity "I Am," you felt fragmented, isolated, and that is why your demands started. In the Absolute there are no needs. Only the Absolute prevails. The truth is total Brahman only, nothing else but Brahman. In a total Brahman state the touch of beingness, "I Am," and with that, separation started, otherness has come. But this "I Amness" is not just a small principle, that itself is the mula-maya, the primary illusion. What I am expounding is not meant for the common people, because they have not reached the stature to understand what I am saying. Therefore I tell them to do bhajans, japa, meditation. After doing that, when the purifying takes place, they will be worthy enough to receive my talks.
Q. From the Unmanifest, the manifest is happening?
M: Who is asking this and why?
Q. I want to know.
M. Nothing prevails but you, everything is you. What answer can I give you?
If you want to remember this visit, if you have love for me, remember this "I Am" principle and without the command or direction of this principle, do nothing.
In the world today there are so many people and they are so busy with their affairs that they don't have time to eat - they stand and eat. These are characteristics of the maya. The great maya principle is making you do all her tricks, and you are also abiding in what she says, and f inally, that light of yours, that beingness, gets extinguished. Then where are you going?
Q. I am going to search for another body!
M: This is all a concept. Before appearing in the world, do you remember your previous history, do you remember anything?
Q. No, but I have read ...
M. I don't want to hear what others write, I want to know from the horse's mouth, from you. If you are not, can others be there? Is this not good enough for you?
Q: But I cannot think of a state when I had not been.
M. That was the non-attention Parabrahman state. That attention "I Am" was not there.
Q. Do we come from the Parabrahman state and go back after beingness goes?
M: Coming down into this world from the Absolute is something like the appearance of a dream. In a dream are you going somewhere? The primary ignorance is the understanding that you are the body. To know that you are the manifest is knowledge, and the knowledge merges into noknowledge, Parabrahman.
Q- But I understand from the Gita ...
M: Throw it away! Whatever you understand is not the truth and it is to be thrown overboard. You are trying to catch hold of something and cling to it. Accept, as it is, what I am telling you. Don't be carried away by concepts. Don't employ any words, and look at yourself as you are.
Few people understand what I am driving at. You are not paying proper attention, you are talking only after this beingness appeared. Before the beingness was there, look at that, be in that state. If you dare call me an atheist, remember that I do bhajans four times a day.
That maya is so powerful that it gets you completely wrapped up in it. Maya means "I Am," "I love to be." It has no identity except love. That knowledge of "I Am" is the greatest foe and the greatest friend. Although it might be your greatest enemy, if you propitiate it properly, it will turn around and lead you to the highest state.
May 8, 1980
Maharaj: After the information given to you by the mother, that you are a boy or a girl, all your further acquisitions are through hearsay. Your primary capital is knowingness, waking state and deep sleep. Remember just this: a real disciple is ready to give up his body and the vital breath to attain this. Abide in the words of the Guru. Stabilize only in "I Amness."
The five elements and the three gunas make up your body and beingness. When you abide in Sat-Guru, Sat-Guru indicates to you that you are the witness of your beingness also. Have faith in the Sat-Guru, you are That. Such a Sat- Guru has remained untouched and without any stigma. Whatever is is there eternally, but we are overwhelmed by concepts. In the world of beingness the consciousness takes care of every worm, bird. human being, of all the species. That is the problem of the beingness. Every species knows the art of living.
Now it is said that I have a disease, therefore I have been taken to various eminent consultants and they have prescribed certain treatments. I have refused to take any treatment because the treatment is for the body and the guarantee of eternal life is not there. The promise was that I would be well for some time. I am not interested in such promises.
I have stabilized in the Eternal and I am not fascinated by this type of life, this burden. I would like to get rid of that as early as possible, I am not interested.
Questioner: You are the Protector.
M. I'm not the Protector, the protection is automatically happening.
Q. There are those well worthyour protection; at least for them wouldyou not listen to their advice, to give them satisfaction?
M. That is not the way of getting satisfaction. To get satisfaction they should go inward. I am rather sorry that you are trying to do this spirituality in such a mundane manner. Suppose the so-called death happens to me, actually what is happening? There is the setting of the five elements, but I shall prevail always. I have stabilized prior to this beingness and the world. Whatever happens to the world, nothing happens to me.
The mind which was accepting that I was born is dead now. I cannot be measured by birth or mind.
There are so many so-called jnanis, but they are thirsty for worldly knowledge. Do you understand what I am driving at? You have craving for worldly knowledge.
You have the consciousness and you are trying to understand everything in this life. Can you control the consciousness? Can you keep it with you always? No, it can go at any time, and you have no authority that you can say this is my consciousness and I will hold on to it for such and such a time.
You are very fond of your dwelling-place in this world, this body. You would not like to go to a state which is beyond this, prior to this. You are enamoured of this beingness state.
May 11, 1980
Maharaj: In the body the consciousness does the witnessing; the behavior is done by the three gunas. Consciousness is all-pervading, spacelike, without form.
If one has an illness or a pain, is there a form to that? It is only a movement in consciousness. The knower of consciousness cannot feel the pain, and it is only because consciousness has identified itself with the body that the body feels pain. When consciousness is not there, even if the body is cut, there is no pain. It is not the body which feels pain.
When there is a disturbance in the balance of the five elements, illness comes and the illness or pain is felt in the consciousness. Just as in the winter the heat gets less and less, as this identification with the body gets less and less the pain that is felt gets less and less, to a degree that, with complete disidentification with the body, one can put his hand in the fire and not feel the pain. The effect of the fire will be there, but the pain will not be felt.
Now, say that I am feeling a pain at a particular moment, and something happens and my mind gets diverted. With this diversion of the new happening I won't feel the pain which I was feeling the previous moment.
Many times I feel an itch all over the body and I scratch, but when sitting in public I don't feel like scratching, so I just tolerate it; in that tolerance it disappears. Otherwise, sometimes if we start scratching, even if the skin is scratched off and bleeding starts, still the itch will not stop. We have a saying in Marathi, "Don't provoke itching by scratching." Most pain and suffering is like this, if you pay attention, it is provoked and you have to pamper it. Don't pay attention, ignore the symptoms and they are lost.
You must have the capacity to tolerate pain. The consciousness in the body cannot have any blemish at all - that is the quality. But when you identify with the body, then, conceptually you might pollute it, but by nature it is very pure. Vital breath is very pure, and this beingness is purer than that. I am talking about Atman, the Self.
This knowledge is likely to create a great sense of frustration in one who doesn't have the right perspective. The intention is to see the state of things in their correct perspective. Having seen it, live your life in the world to the best of your ability.
Immortality is beyond time and space; in that timeless, spaceless existence there is no entry for the five elements, for light or darkness, for the sun or the moon. Timeless, spaceless existence doesn't know that it is. That is reality, That is the truth.
In any amount of meditation, etc., you do not remain in your real state; it is only by firm conviction that you are the highest that you stabilize in the Ultimate. Normally a common spiritual seeker will not understand what I am driving at because he is seeking something which he can enjoy. What is your ambition in being a spiritual seeker? You are looking for advantage in the world, to take care of your daily life - that is the maximum you expect out of spirituality. The so-called sages, who are following a spiritual pursuit, focus their ambition on seeing that their daily life goes on comfortably.
Why in hell did I happen to be? Nobody enquires about that. Only that person will visit this place whose virtue and sin have come to an end. So long as there is that stigma of the memory that you are a body-mind you will not understand.
The sum total of all this talk is known as Sat-Guns-Parabrahman. In that state there are no requirements. My state is that which never felt the creation and dissolution of the universe. I have not expounded this part. I remain untouched through the creation and dissolution of the universe.