September 25, 1979


Questioner: It’s very hard to convince myself that I am the “I Am”; there is always the little feeling inside that I am beyond it. So how can I embrace the “I Am” totally? 

Maharaj: Don’t employ the words. It is like a seed that has been planted and that you have to water every day for three months before the sprouting takes place. What you have heard should subside inside; it must be assimilated. This is all word-ly knowledge. Just watch. 

You are coming here from an ashram? 

Q: Yes. 

AT Do you have faith in your Guru? 

Q: Yes, I have faith in him. 

AT Why leave that Guru and wander around like this? You must go to him only. 

Q: I am still not satisfied; I have a lot of reservations. 

M: If you have reservations, it is best that you leave hiM: otherwise completely surrender yourself—doubts and convictions, everything. 

If you have accepted one Guru, implicit faith—and complete surrender—is very necessary. Serving the Guru is following whatever guidance he gives you through words. You must imbibe and become one with those words. 

Before you surrender to any Guru you are free to move anywhere, a free-lance spiritual seeker. Go anywhere, collect spiritual information, do what you like; but once you accept a Guru there must be complete surrender. 

Don’t think that the Guru is some person; it is not so. The Guru is that beingness, and beingness is manifestation. All the world is beingness and that is the Guru. 

Q: Does this hold true if one has a Guru who is no longer embodied? Maharaj has said that if one has surrendered to a Guru one should not shop around. 

M: If that Guru was no more how could you experience the world? The one who recognizes this beingness and transcends it is Sat Guru. Otherwise there are Gurus who are just shopkeepers, trading in spirituality. 

Q: When Maharaj speaks Absolutely, am I identical to Maharaj or am I equivalent? 

M: We are one. Abide in the words of the Guru. This disciple is obsessed by the concept which is standing on his shoulders. My Guru gave this same knowledge to various disciples, but the behavior of each disciple is different. Each has a different concept about what the Guru has said, and he hangs onto the personal concept which he likes the most. 

Try to understand the significance of the “I Am.” The more you try to gauge, the higher you will find the quality. Don’t belittle yourself. You are not a man or a woman; you are that principle out of which all has come. 

Q: Yesterday I was inhering in this “I Am” state off and on, and gemstones came to my mental vision. They were so clear: they shone with a dark amber color, very beautiful. 

M: They are the precious stones of the knowledge. The stones are radiating out of the knowledge. If they shine on others they will be liberated; such are those precious ones. In spite of my indicating to you what you are, you are still hanging on to the body and embracing death. 

Q: What does Maharaj mean by “shine on others”? 

M: Does the sun ask whether my light will shine on others? Have you confirmed who you are? 

Q: I find the concept that I am the sun difficult. 

M: Be without any concepts. Confirm that you are not the body. 

Q: How do I develop love for others? 

M: Don't try to love somebody, be love. When you are love, that love will be useful to humanity. Just like water, if you are water, everything will grow. 

Q: Christ said that we should love others as the Self. 

M: Everything is your Self, there is no other. All this is the expression of your love. 

I am not going to hammer in the same guiding words again and again. You absorb it. 

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