27. The Beginningless Begins Forever

Beyond the mind there is no such thing as experience.

Experience is a dual state. You cannot talk of reality as an experience. Once this is understood, you will no longer look for being and becoming as separate and opposite. In reality they are one and inseparable, like roots and branches of the same tree. Both can exist only in the light of consciousness, which again, arises in the wake of the sense 'I am'. This is the primary fact. If you miss it, you miss all.

Whatever is spoken is speech only. Whatever is thought is thought only. The real meaning is unexplainable, though experienceable. "I am That" is true, but your ideas are false, for all ideas are false.

Conviction is a mental state. In 'That' there is no 'I am'. With the sense 'I am' emerging, 'That' is obscured, as with the sun rising the stars are wiped out. But as with the sun comes light, so with the sense of self comes bliss. The cause of bliss is sought in the 'not-I' and thus the bondage begins.

I am neither conscious, nor unconscious of my real state.

I do not need convictions. I live on courage. Courage is my essence, which is love of life. I am free of memories and anticipations, unconcerned with what I am and what I am not. I am not addicted to self-descriptions, 'I am That' is of no use to me, I have the courage to be as nothing and to see the world as it is: nothing. It sounds simple, just try it!

Anxiety and hope are born of imagination - I am free of both. I am simple being and I need nothing to rest on. Being shines as knowing, knowing is warm in love. It is all one. You imagine separations and trouble yourself with questions. Don't concern yourself overmuch with formulations. Pure being cannot be described.

Do not drag down reality to the level of experience. How can reality depend on experience, when it is the very ground of experience. Reality is in the very fact of experience, not in its nature. Experience is, after all, a state of mind, while being is definitely not a state of mind.

The separation is an appearance.

Just as the dream is not apart from the dreamer, so is knowing not apart from being. The dream is the dreamer, the knowledge is the knower, the distinction is merely verbal.

The undisturbed state of being is bliss; the disturbed state is what appears as the world. In non-duality there is bliss; in duality - experience. What comes and goes is experience with its duality of pain and pleasure. Bliss is not to be known. One is always bliss, but never blissful. Bliss is not an attribute.

The beginningless begins forever. In the same way, I give eternally, because I have nothing. To be nothing, to have nothing, to keep nothing for oneself is the greatest gift, the highest generosity.