Today, I've started everyday-yoga challenge. From today to the December 22 I will do every day half primary ashtanga yoga practice. This real challenge is a great way to restart my yoga routine, to establish a daily practice and gain the benefits that come with practicing ashtanga yoga.
I'm unclear for the reasons but the last two years I've found myself struggling with yoga practice. I have practiced yoga daily but not sufficient that I can record into my statistics which requires at least 45 minutes of practice.
A lack of motivation, simple laziness or getting older, or just poor timing but somehow I didn’t feel connected to the yoga practice, and ultimately I got to this point of my life where I'm not satisfied how I look. I don't want to lose weight, I want stronger arms, wider shoulders, narrower waist.
I feel energetic and motivated to do something for me. I'm in a good mood.
I'm struggling to get into new routine of not taking naps during a day. But it is so hard. Today after lunch I felt so sleepy I had to take an hour nap. Well, I will continue to fight against it.
After vacation I suddenly have found myself so busy at my job. The end of the year is coming so multiple projects are in jeopardy to be finished. Managers are pushy and eager to get them done. And it all comes to my desk.
Last night I went to bed around 5 pm, just after I turned off my work laptop and guess what, I slept more than 6 hours, until 11:15 pm. I was so tired. I got up refreshed, had a coffee or two and then I made immigration application for my fiancée.
Until 5 am, I was filling out required documents, what is left is travel report for the last 10 years. Crazy. There are so much trips to write down so I texted my fiancée to help me fill out that part.
Despite of the large expenses for travelling and going out I have succeeded for a long time to be debt free. But now, I have a debt, my visa account is skyrocketed after I bought tickets for my daughter and myself for the trip to Belgrade.
In this quiet period of my life, I want to save money. I have renewed my mortgage with astonishing 6.5% interest rate. My monthly mortgage payment went up for $100 per month. But regardless of everything I would like to pay off my entire mortgage next year.
My dreaming reality is unrolling, I experience, people come in and go out from my life and events are passing by but I don't know who benefits from all this. Zen teacher will say - there are no benefits? There is only experience - chop wood , carry water - carry water, chop wood... for the sake of appearances.
I've chosen a different life from what I was living so far. Next year I will get married and I will start living with my wife. I'm opening new chapters of my life's story, thinking how lucky
I am to be here and now at this exact place at this exact time. I have learned
nothing in life except the fact that life is continues movement and change.
A yoga-lifestyle involves consciously shaping my attitudes, habits, and general ways of life to be more congruent with the self realization, the principles, morals, and ethics of enlightenment.
I take yoga off the mat creating a balance and clarity in everything I do, from relationships to money savings, to my everyday life. I want to be conscious human being at all times. That is my goal.
In the end what matters the most is this fight for being a conscious man.