Stories of Our Time

Happy Sunday !!!

After communism fell, the promises of western liberalism to transform former communist countries were never realized – what has happened is the western become extremely left and it is going that way as we speak. I'm not interested in the politics... I leave this planet to those who like it.

This blog is a simple tool to keep me balanced and oriented towards my goal - reaching self-realization. Everything else that goes against this goal will be promptly removed from my life. I have no more time to waste.

The world is not black and white, it is gray. You may say that every story has two sides etc.. but on the end all come down to one thing... everything is false. Untrue. Lie. Take it as you like.

Do you know what does fickle mean? A long time ago, a woman, dear to me, left me a long message and she finish it with "To you Zee, to my dear fickle friend." I was so proud when I read it because I did not know what fickle meant, but it sounded cool.

Oh well, now I know, and I have concluded that the life is a fickle friend. 😋

I don't watch TV news for the last 7 years and recently I have stopped reading newspapers on the internet. Wherever you look is some scare shit. I do not believe in anything they are writing. The universe is nothing more than a huge simulation, we're living inside a gigantic "computer", and none of this is real. Our life is nothing but a game.

Do you know that universe could be just one big projection and as soon as you are not looking, the things simply vanish, they are not there, but the real question is do you want to know about it? I don't think so.

We have no time for such trivial things. The life is pressing us so we go with the flow without ever exploring what it is that we are truly doing. I know there’s something wrong with this world, but I'm too lazy to look at it, too polite to complain, too scared to voice my opinion and too busy to see the obvious...

Writing a blog in recent days has become dangerous thing. There is no free speech and everyone can raise a concern and get you in trouble because you have written something offensive. I am seriously thinking to stop writing this blog.

The amount of bullshit around us is staggering.

Do you know about Harvard's 75-year study which reveals the secret of living a happy life? It took them 75 fucking years to discover that a good relationship makes the happy life. They study 300 people from early age to present day. They are still studying their life even now in their 90ties. The article is quite interesting but the study itself is just waste of time.

They say value love above all else. Meaningful relationships and connections matter a lot. Happiness is love.

What about not so good relationship? What is a good relationship, anyway? Life simply gets shittier as you grow old... Growing old does not mean growing up in understanding. No one understands things better because there is nothing to be understood! We just laugh less and complain more.

The truth is terrifying. We live in shitty place with mistaken identity. We create our own reality, but we lack the energy to understand that. We're too busy thinking how wonderful we are, how sensitive, how unique. We are not fucking unique! We are uninteresting, boring and predictable appearances.

People imitate others... until they are old and finish in the hospital...

My mother died in the palliative care in January 2015. I was with her a month earlier and I spend considerable time in that department. The palliative care is the place for dying... I read an article about the last words of the patients there. Do you know what those patients in their last days has revealed the most common regrets they have at the end of their lives? Well, they come in this order:

 - I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
 - I wish I hadn't worked so hard.
 - I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
 - I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
 - I wish I had let myself be happier.

We are convinced that we're having a terrible life, and that most of the time we're making a fool of ourselves. But despite our feelings, our life is actually above average; we live quite a good life. There is no need to improve anything in our life just change the attitude.

It's very rare that someone gets all love, care and freedom when they are young. Most of us are emotionally damaged adults because of our childhood experiences. So the first task of our life is to figure out who we are and what we want, independent of others.

We have the power to make it happen. Universe (hologram, computer game or not) have no choice but to give us what we want. Only predicament is - we must know what we really want.

Do you know the people would stay on the phone line for three and a half hours for nothing? In recent article from Narcisity.Com Toronto radio host gave away 'Tickets To Nothing'. What do you say about that? And people waited for hours on hold to win them.

That was no giveaway; listeners had to call in and play games to earn their tickets. There's one game, for example, where listeners must be on hold and the longest, with the winner taking home the prize. And the price was a ticket for nothing.

"It's kind of a dumb joke that's created real joy." said the Toronto radio host.