Stuck in the moment
My present goal is to get rid of my personality, this stupid self which does not serves me at all. I read on the net that depersonification is an actual disorder. Really?
Depersonalization-derealization disorder (DPDR, DPD) is a mental disorder in which the person has persistent or recurrent feelings of depersonalization or derealization. Depersonalization is described as feeling disconnected or detached from one's self. Individuals may report feeling as if they are an outside observer of their own thoughts or body, and often report feeling a loss of control over their thoughts or actions. Derealization is described as detachment from one's surroundings. Individuals experiencing derealization may report perceiving the world around them as foggy, dreamlike/surreal, or visually distorted. ~ Wikipedia
Desire is underneath everything
In Rig Veda, written around 1500 to 800 BC, the one of the writers contemplates a question if something can be first, if there can have been a creation at all. According to the text, the universe began with desire which was a primal seed and germ of Spirit.
"Desire" derives from the Latin desiderare - to long or wish for, which itself derives from de sidere - from the stars, suggesting that the original sense of a word desire is to await what the stars will bring.
Fast forward to the present time...
The quantum mechanics works extremely well to describe the behavior of tiny objects, such as atoms or particles of light (photons). And what that found is very odd.
According to one of theory in quantum physics, a particle’s behavior changes depending on whether there is an observer or not. It basically suggests that universe is a kind of illusion and exists only when we are looking at it.
In many cases, this quantum theory doesn't give definite answers to questions such as "where is the particle right now?" Instead, it only provides probabilities for where the particle might be found when it is observed.
The great masters from the East said that all appearance is illusion, the witness of it is Reality
They say the seen is false because it is visible. The individual seer remains only as long as the objects are taken to truly exist. There is nothing apart from the seer and the seen in the world. Whatever is seen is an illusion created by the eyes. In a mirror a face is seen, but the fact is that there is only one "you".
According to great seers the source of universe is individual self in the form of knowledge. On one side the world is created and the other side everything vanishes. If you know yourself, the universe disappears.
We (as Absolute) are steady by nature and we are always. The steady admits of no change but the personality admits change. The personality is based on desire and desires constantly arise from within us, just to be replaced by more desires. Without this continuous stream of desiring, there would be no life, the life would stop. Lack of desire corresponds to boredom, and depression.
