Yesterday I met my daughter at 5:15 pm and we went for a dinner. I insisted that we meet and indeed, we had such a nice time. I love her, I will do anything for her, she is everything to me.
A night before, I had a dream about her. I'm aware in my dreams and I remember them very well. I usually fly in my dreams but this dream was different. I was fearful in the beginning but a great epiphany was on the end.
In that dream, I carried my daughter on my shoulders. She was 4 years old. We were going through some streets in an unknown city. There was a lot of people around us. We were going almost running and then we met somebody and while I was talking to that person, in a moment, I lost my daughter, she was gone from my shoulders. I asked where she is. I started panicking, going around searching for her... and I found her, she was crying in a corner of the street. When I saw her, she looked at me and she smiled with such love that my heart almost melted... Then I woke up.
Well, I know, my dreams are a bit strange, indeed.
My friend, our life sucks big way. Whoever told you that with age you will become smarter lied to you. You were young and stupid and then you are not young anymore. The same with me.
I don't like empty hopes. Like something better will come. Those optimistic people have no clue how the real world works. They are totally soft and weak-minded. They stick their heads in the sand and ignore reality thinking happy thoughts while doing nothing.
I am not a pessimist either. I don't expect only bad outcomes, I am not gloomy, joyless and unhopeful. Well, scratch unhopeful. Although I went through so many disappointments, I don't expect the misfortune in my future.
I'm a realist without a clue if being a realist is something good to acquire, but I ended up here, in the middle of this.
What does it mean to be a realist anyway?
I'm not downplaying the good things in life and trying to see the bad as inevitable. I try to make no prejudice for what people believe and how they behave, I try to be impartial, with no judgments.
The attitude is the thing. I'm a realist, and I'm here to set the record straight. Forget those glasses that can be half empty or half full, the glass could be filled to the brim or emptied to the last drop, it depends how thirsty you are, that’s how unpredictable life is. I make sense of the world, and that’s why I have advantage over general population.
Things in life tend to go their own way just up to the certain point and then a little twist happen and things start to deteriorate and again events go until next little twist. In the end, if additional effort is not asserted, the result of what was planned became quite different.
Take for example musical scale. The frequencies of vibration of the seven notes of the octave are: Do, Re, Mi, Fa, So, La, Si. In this scale, there are 5 “whole tones”, and two smaller tones, so called half-tones Mi-Fa and Si-Do. It is natural representation that things do not go straight and that some other work needs to be done in order to achieve things as they are planned.
In anything in life (work, relationship, career, etc...) where you wish certain outcome you have to recognize the "twists" and put additional efforts right there. Let’s be honest; it’s great to always have a cheerful outlook, but it’s downright stupid to think that’s the only possible outcome. Be prepared for anything.
Quite honestly, I don't trust people. Do you think it’s so cute when you meet someone who automatically trusts everyone and believes everyone is full of kindness? Or do you think they’re incredibly naïve?
I'm open with people simply because I don't have any reason to protect my personality. Rather, I want to get rid off my personality completely. And I naively still believe that others are like me. But this is not so. One time after another I discover that not everyone is good inside.
I love my daughter. I am realistic about life and my future, and I know that this attitude will help me get through each day with as few complications as possible...
