My Blog & Myself

Writing a blog is amazing, and I’m as addicted to it as you are reading it. Putting my personal views and life on the display (privacy, what privacy?) creates the illusion of connection with you. 

For the record, this post isn’t meant to be a pessimistic rant about how tough life is. I'm writing a here what I need to change, no matter how much I believe I have my shit together. 

I’m willing to be a blunt bastard that tells everything like it is and tries to act accordingly.

A magical drink I'm taking every night

I don't have comments on my blog due to simple reason I don't really give a shit of what your opinion is. Don't be offended, it is nothing personal. 

I don't care anymore if you agree with me and much less if you don't. From my perspective, the whole world revolves around me, but there are billions of you who see it the same way.

I am not selfish enough, I used to be far more concerned with how I'm perceived by you than how I perceive you. The truth is that you don't think about me at all, so I'm going to change my thirst for your approval. 

The ugliest truth is that I valued your opinion of me more than my own. 

I've spent a large part of my life doing things in the hope of getting you to like me. In chasing your approval, I did things I didn’t want to, I become something what I am not.

Shit happens. And it really sucks to have to go through and deal with whatever it's pissing me off. I used to wait and hope that somehow a shitty situation would magically resolve itself. I thought that if I waited long enough, I would suddenly understand it's meaning, things will become better and I'll write a post about it.

I finally understood that waiting and hoping for something good to happen would never bring me any satisfaction. Notice that the word satisfaction ends with action. Action is the formula that changes things. 

Cheers... it tastes like chicken 😉

In 2 weeks I'll be 58. I have no time to be afraid anymore. I don't want anything from you. Writing about awakening I'm fulfilling my part on this planet. 

Life is not scary, or bad, or a curse, or any other bullshit thing that people make it out to be. My life is a my creation, it is a product of my INTENT.  

I live at High Park area of Toronto in a small, 550 sq feet, one bedroom, cozy apartment. Being a straightforward guy, I don't like complications and anything that creates over thinking. I try to see events as they are but so often I also go astray and supply meaning to the events.

I'm a mixture of fearless man who adores freedom and undisciplined child who make so many mistakes. I'm very easy to be understood. Being confident, spontaneous and independent, I want to be in charge.

As uncomplicated, bold, aggressive and impulsive, I'm perceived as insensitive, often blunt and impatient. So be it. I don't need to change, you have to look at me with different perspective.

Looking at the world purely from my own perspective I see that I am caring, compassionate, team player, and an overall okay guy and here deep down in my heart there is a strong thirst for independence.

I'm an albatross

There are so many articles, videos, books about finding your purpose in life and living your life happily. I am not quite sure that they make any sense but you like to read it. It probably gives you a certain pleasure.

Things in life are much simpler than you think. There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so, said Shakespeare. And it is true. Your thinking supplies judgments and colors the events according to your mood.

The life is really completely neutral. Events, per se, have no meaning whatsoever, but there is a touch of "personality", that makes you angry or satisfied. You like this, you don't like that. That is not really necessary.

Nothing is ever wrong. I learn from every experience I had, although I'm very slow, so I repeat my mistakes all over again. Whatever I did was a necessary step for the future. 

I'm proud of myself. Maybe I'm not as good as I want to be but thanks to all the lessons I've learned along the way, I'm so much today better than I was yesterday.

And the song of the day...