Being indifferent is the attitude I want to cultivate. I'm going to lead my life without interests and concerns, simply not caring for anything, having no bias, prejudice, or preference, treating all equally.
Whatever comes, let it come, whatever goes, let it go
I'm accustomed giving too much attention to something that should not bother me at all.
From now on I am going to be dispassionate about the things that happen around me instead of being caught up in drama and emotions, I'll just enjoy the show setting my attention a way back, in the place before words, sitting and watching... carefree. It's mind over matter, it's awareness over ignorance.
Life is like a movie. Seeing myself and others from a detached, 3rd-person perspective and having no respect for my own assumptions, beliefs and pride, is the goal. From stand point of where "I AM" nothing matters, nothing has any importance in my life.
My major preoccupation now is to get away from this shitty personality. There are several "I"s that exist simultaneously in myself. Knowing this for a fact, I need to be less invested in what's going on. The emotions don't really have a place in my life.
What kind of movie am I in right now?
If I quiet my mind, I see patterns of my behavior, I see a bigger picture. My shitty persona with this name, social insurance number, its likes, dislikes and its fears simply does not exist. It is an imagination. And because it does not have existence it takes everything as a big deal. It creates constant thinking fueled by feelings, it creates self appearance...
Nothing is important, it's no big deal. Whatever it is. It is all about leaving the assumptions, beliefs, pride and emotions out of my attention. In order to do so, mind has to be clear and aware. Lets have an open mind and be unattached to opinions on any matter in this world.
I need to observe people around me, understand them and think of the process behind their concepts, find out their character, seeing their background and why it is they're saying what they're saying and doing what they're doing. And when it comes to their words and actions, what do they actually mean?
One thing I need to watch about is that too much of indifference can easily be mistaken for aloofness. People may take me to be cold, or be just plain negative. That's not the indifference I am going for! I'm going to be open, welcoming, and receptive, it's just that I'll not care what happens. I will be an observer of the movie.
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