I am free to say that in 20 years of the investigation I have
discovered the truth - in this world, and life, nothing has value.
Worldly events force you to move, to make decisions , it arises the desire,
fear, anger, and you think that is "you". You get stuck talking to
yourself, explaining, hoping, trying to find any meaning in all this.
Life
has no explanations to give. It is an empty, meaningless flow of events that
just go on and on. Whatever happens has little or no importance. People are
born, they live their pity lives... they eat, shit, fuck, work and work and
work more until they die.
To find the truth, to
see what is real and to lead a genuine life is a goal of everyone. Life is
rarely straightforward as you may wish. It is both profound and simple, yet
process of understanding it tends to be very difficult, if not downright
complicated.
Be daring, be different, be impractical, be anything that will assert integrity of purpose and imaginative vision against the play-it-safers, the creatures of the commonplace, the slaves of the ordinary. - Cecil Beaton
I understand that you exists not in order to achieve something but actually to
simplify things. You are here to cut through your crowded thoughts and
paranoia, to cut through your confusion and doubt.
Don Juan categorized people into three types... One was farts, a smelly fart - very assertive, ready to tell you - Fuck you, are you sure that's the way to do it?What person type you are?
The other, golden piss - the sweetest, wonderful beings, they give words. They could die for you, or so they say. They won't, but they say it, which is very nice - nicer than the fart.
The third type, puke. Not fart, not piss, just puke - the kind that doesn't have anything to give, but promises the world, and has you begging ...
- Carlos Castaneda
Ah I know, the fearful one. Know that all fears come from uncertainty of who you are. You take yourself to be different than the world so that is causing a feeling that you are inadequate to deal with that mysterious life that is threatening you. What will happen to you? is always on your mind.
The world reflects your uncertainty and your fears. The world is a mirror projection of yourself, of what you take yourself to be! Your uncertainty is haunting you. To know this, it is wisdom.
Enjoy the world, stop being afraid of yourself by cultivating the good sense of humor. Understand and accept your insignificance, stop all seriousness, enjoy life as it comes, from moment to moment.
Courage and optimism diminish with time
As you grow older, as time is passing by, you are becoming more and more a coward. With age you lack the courage to do or endure unpleasant things. Some of you appear as cynics but actually you are just timid, easily intimidated person.
The house that you own, the money in retirement fund etc. do not really protect you. It fools you. There is no security or any rest in this world, the picture of old people on the beach is not realistic. It does not show, the pills for high blood pressure, diapers, the lack of sleep, rheumatism etc...
With the age, you start remembering the most embarrassing crap you did in your life with perfect clarity. The kind things you did will be pushed away, you will forget them. Instead to correct yourself, you start correcting other people in your life, your kids, spouse, neighbors, co workers. With age you have a fleeting sense of superiority over younger people so they start to resent you.
There’s no meaning to your life, no reward for achieving all the things
you've achieved. And please, stop saying that things were better back then
in your youth. When you were young, the life was cheaper, happier and people
were nicer. Oh well.
You are on your life journey. Many of you
are on completely different routes than I am, it doesn't matter. We will all
finish at the same place.
I have concluded that there is not such thing as truth. Everything that you know is false, there are only lies. Life has no other explanation to give you. You may have concluded something else but it is just matter of time when you'll see that you were wrong.