Saturday, April 21, 2018

Do whatever the f*ck you want


I'm tired and hungry and I'm looking around. What I see is the normal everyday life. Nothing is really wrong... Until I think there is something wrong. Then there is. So now, for some reason, I think there is.

I see that what I had always considered normal life is actually a bit strange and that nothing is quite what I thought. I have taken a step back from my life, one small step, and I'm confused by what I see.

What are we living for? Is the life just a stage-play and are we here to act our part for a brief moment, only to disappear behind the stage forever? What beliefs do I embrace? What objectives am I attempting to reach?

I slip into this life that is laid out for me the way a foot slip in the shoe. I already wrote that I am a contradictory person. I decide nothing, I don't live my life by choice, but by default. I play the roles I am born to. I don't know any better, and I don't know the reason why I don't know any better.

I seem to dwell in an endless desert in which I only I and my thirst exist. I seem to spend an inordinate amount of time chasing happiness. As I examine my situation, I find it odd that I resemble Willie The Coyote, and that my entire life is just like a cartoon.

Weird huh! How did I not see this before? In fact, now that I do see it, I can't believe I ever didn't see it, much less that I've gone my entire life without noticing - I am a cartoon coyote in a cartoon desert chasing cartoon happiness.

Why am I chasing the happiness? Why does my entire existence revolve around such a ridiculous endeavor? What drives me for that? Is it boredom, hatred? Love? Lust? Oh yes, personal achievement?

I'm simply seeing my life as a lie. Zilch. Nada. Nothing. There is no intrinsic purpose to my life, that I must do this, or that I was created for that. This may seem depressing, but it is an inevitability. I live in a world of fake or temporary opportunities, and the reality is that seizing these opportunities does not mean absolutely nothing, oh well, maybe a temporary happiness.

It’s not like I have anything against happiness, love, or success, or personal achievements or being nice, smiling more, eating healthy, losing weight, being your best, or embracing the day with a positive attitude. Those all sound great. Honestly, they do.

It’s just that I have a problem with being told to do all of those things by someone laughing on a tropical island, waving a red scarf around head, while some professional photographer snapping the picture. Whatever.

I am coming to the end of this post, that I want to share with you. And I have a message for you... Do whatever the fuck you want. Be your damn self. Don’t be a terrible person. Be nice to others. Be supportive of your friends... But seriously, do whatever the fuck you want!

Do you want glass of beer? Then just drink a fucking beer. Do you want a peace of chocolate? Don’t be gross about it, and don’t eat a chocolate three meals a day. But I beg you stop beating yourself up about it and just eat.

Do. Whatever. The Fuck. You Want. The life is your show. It is your universe. Who else knows about your thoughts and feelings? There is no one else there, you are completely on your own. Everything is available to you. No one else can lead you, pull you, push you or carry you. No one else is necessary for you.

Be courageous, enough to fulfill a life fully understanding that there is only a glaring nothingness awaiting you on the other side. Live, fight like it matters, and that is a manner of the highest strength.


Friday, April 20, 2018

Do you think you work useless job?


If you've read my blog for some time you know that I like what is the meaning of life? question. Most people would say the meaning of life is to make the world a beautiful, nicer and more interesting place. They think that is possible through work.

But definition of work is incredibly narrow. GDP counts "work" as an activity that generates money. Our education is set around feeding as many people as possible into money making corporate machine. A growing proportion of employees, even successful ones, say their work is pointless. That’s one of the biggest taboos of our times.

Recent study done in 142 countries with more than 200,000 employees surveyed is showing that only 13% of workers actually like their job. Half said they're feeling that their job have no “meaning and significance", 40% think they have a job that is utterly useless and 50% are unable to relate to their company’s mission. A growing number of people think their job is useless.

Do you think you work an useless, bullshit job? On paper, your job may sound fantastic. You may be a successful professional with impressive LinkedIn profile and large salary, nevertheless you may go home every evening grumbling that your work serves no purpose. I’m not talking about the healthcare workers, the teachers, and the nurses of the world. No, I’m talking about the growing armies of financial consultants, bankers, tax advisors, managers, and others...


It is the big banks and other financial corporation that set the work standards in today's world. Employees of such corporations work under extreme stress to work and produce more. The work is closely monitored by software who measured how much time employees spend in each deal they are making. Yet, working for the big banks have been a dream for so many. They do not realize that such jobs lead them to automation.


The single and the greatest danger of working bullshit job is actually degeneration of your consciousness. It is doing one thing all over again, being carefully monitored and brainwashed by the micromanagement. Thinking about corporate things lowers your IQ, harms your cognitive functions, makes you robot like creature under constant stress of achieving more, producing more... and all that leads to depression and apathy.

I believe in a future where the value of your work is not determined by the size of your paycheck, but by the amount of happiness you spread and the amount of meaning you give. I believe in a future where the point of education is not to prepare you for another useless job, but for a life well lived. I believe in a future where “jobs are for robots and life is for people.” - Rutger Bregman, Correspondent of World Economic Forum, Netherlands

Those words are pure utopia. We are heading in different direction. The buy and sell mentality is squeezing out the last reminders of our consciousness. Mankind, driven by greed, has become extremely sick.


The crooked political system, greedy financial corporate world, distorted entertainment industry, false news and advertisements, phony medical and pharmaceutical industry, dishonest food industry, shameful travel and working conditions, constant wars and lost of basic human rights are our reality.

One hundred years ago it was predicted that we’d all be working just 15-hours per week by the year 2030. The prediction was clearly wrong. Since the 1980s, work has started taking up more of our time, bringing burnouts and stress to all of us.


Thursday, April 19, 2018

Where did Nibiru go?


Today I read on the internet:

Sound the alarm! We must take immediate action before it’s too late. More than 15,000 scientists from 184 countries around the world have issued a doomsday “warning to humanity.” Climate change, species extinction, deforestation and exponential human population growth are all threatening our very existence...

- Scientists Issue Doomsday “Warning To Humanity” by TRUTH THEORY

Here we go again. The internet is full of reports that the end of the world is near. Collision with Nibiru is supposed to happen on April 23  (again) forgetting that we were all a little burned out by the 2012 end of Maya calendar debacle. In case you were inclined to believe in this bullshit know that the reports of Nibiru are lies and entire end of the world thing is bogus.


I remember that on Friday, December 21, 2012, the world supposed to finally end. The Nibiru collision with Earth was predicted then as well. Mayan calendar ended that day and humanity supposed to stop existing... and.... nothing. Nothing happened at all.

Let's say the worst thing really happen.

Would it really be so bad if my world broke apart at the seams? As I described my daily routine, it looks like my life is fairly predictable. Correct me if I am wrong, but your life is pretty much like mine.

I mean, you practice yoga or go to gym, you make money, raise kids, socialize, fulfill your roles, just like everybody else. Basically, you are going slow, in small circles, toward your own grave while pretending you are not. Sure, you meditate and do whatever spiritual practice, but you know that is not really going anywhere, right? Maybe, this end-of-the-world thing could be your one real chance.


Saying "May you live in interesting times" is both a blessing and a curse. I don't live in interesting times. Nibiru did not cause the meltdown of an advanced technological civilization. All pretense at decency and morality are still in place. The masks of the world: kindness, love, and compassion are still here. We missed the mass awakening, where millions of people could get very real, very fast.

The scientist's warning about human species extinction is a slow death comparing with the Nibiru. Nibiru could be the death-rebirth process but on a planetary scale. This whole ego based society burns down to the ground and then something rises from the ashes. A human re-evolution. Cool thing. Now compare that to today's bland little warning published by Truth Theory.

I don’t care about your religious beliefs. But I care about awakening so can you please ignore the screaming from the doomsday articles. Now forget about that insane "scientific" report for just one second. The world really is falling apart but not from "outside" of humanity but from our society, we built so far.

The crooked political system, the distorted entertainment industry, false news, and advertisements, phony medical and pharmaceutical industry, dishonest food industry, travel and working conditions, constant wars and loss of basic human rights are our reality.


But humankind has been aspiring to be the machine for a few decades now and eventually the effects of this aspiration become more and more apparent as toxins build up everywhere...

Stop comforting yourself with the old fairy tales, stories of good and evil and shitty positive thinking. Live life in the moment. Feel more, play more, enjoy the feelings. Allow the deepest despair and the most ecstatic joy to pass through you. Don’t judge or try to get rid of them. Be alive. You are life itself, inseparable from the universe.

The world really does not exist. It is all what you make, what you think about. Live at the point of insecurity, nothing to hold onto, no concept to bring to a weary mind. And yet, you'll feel the deepest happiness, a happiness deep within your being, the security of what you are.

Sunday, April 15, 2018

HERE... The secret teaching is revealed to you!


Though the Egyptian pyramids are now just broken stone, the spirit of Egyptian philosophy is still felt today.

Though the ancient Brahmins crumbled into dust, though ancient Yogas are now changed beyond recognition, still the wisdom of the Vedas endures.

Though the House of the Mysteries are now but rows of ghostly columns, still "Who Am I?" shines it's spiritual glory.

Though Zoroaster, Hermes, Pythagoras, Plato, and Aristotle are now but dim memories and lost pages in historical books, still they live again in the words and symbols for the honest spiritual seeker...

In this era of "practical" electronic gadgets and social media, people ridicule philosophy. They don't ponder about the question of the existence and goodness, they ponder with their befuddled minds only about fashion, cars and bigger houses. People have forgotten the path which leads beyond the stars.

They continue to laugh and cry, to love and hate. Their dream is for their own prosperity not for the nobler world, a fuller life, a more perfect spiritual realization. They are not going for the virtue, love, and humility. The soul of people has been deprived of its wings, the bare flesh is all that is left.


A Human Being is not the insignificant creature that it appears to be. The physical body is not the true measure of human's real self. The secret knowledge of how "I" sense comes into being, without any effort, will be revealed only by consciousness. So being conscious is the most important thing in this world.

Consciousness, your sense of presence, your sense of "I", is itself God, and it is the only thing  which can reveal to you the secret of all manifestation, all creation. Nothing else can do so, all else is concept - imagination.

Any teaching who gives you the spiritual knowledge is based on knowledge of its own concepts which considers Truth. The concepts may be excellent but still they are concepts, and whatever is understood through it, is not going to be permanent.

The consciousness cannot reveal its secrets to those who are holding onto certain ideas, hoping to acquire something very great. The spiritual realization is simplicity itself. The study of "I am" is concept-free study.

Stay in the "I am" presence and let go of everything else. You need courage to do so. You have to be brave. The world happens spontaneously. The very concept "I am awake" is root of illusion. Just be, be present in all your activities, observe, accepting things as they are. One in a million will do this practice, others want to gain something.

The consciousness is of a universal nature, just like space. The imagination and memory create a body and a personality. The practice is to remove the identity with the body. Remove the feeling that something good is going to happen to you. This "feeling" is "you". Be aware of this.

Follow daily activities with attention on your sense of presence, your "I am" sense. It is hard. It is difficult, but follow it longer and longer time. Otherwise you will be moving about like a leaf on the wind that just jumps about here and there. Stabilize yourself in "I am". Know yourself. Self knowledge is only knowledge worth having.

You as an individual are imaginary thing. Now, you know, the full secret is revealed to you. Go.


Saturday, April 14, 2018

I Am A Contradictory Person


Saturday, April 14th, it is almost 2 p.m. I am still in pajamas. I got up around noon. Last night I was with friends to Fancy Kafana in Mississauga and we stayed until 2:30 a.m. I was drunk and I had a good time, dancing on the floor in front of live music.

Now I have a headache. I just took vitamin C and a lemon with full glass of water. I hope the headache will pass. This brings me to the main issue of my life. I drink, smoke and eat a lot, true, I also do yoga. 5 practices this week and I am going to do a practice when I finish this post.

Outside is -3 C, freezing rain has covered the grounds in Toronto like a snow. It is windy, cold and there is no indication that spring will come soon. The forecast for next week is not promising.


Anyway, back to the main issue of my life... well I am a contradictory man. I am a man with a combination of statements, ideas and features of life situations that are opposed to one another. I am a person with inconsistent behavior.

Take for example my desire to get rid of belly fat. I've started strict diet since Tuesday but the last night I ate and drunk so much so I actually gain 2 kg. My weight scale does not lie. Another example is my wish to reduce smoking so I decided to go out on the balcony and smoke only there but as I type this I keep the cigarettes in my hand.

WTF. I admit, I am a fool, all the time. It’s just I'm an idiot a different kind each day. I think, I’m not a fool today. I’ve learned my lesson. I was a fool yesterday but not this moment. Then tomorrow I find out that, yes, I was a fool then too. I think the only way I can continue with this world is to accept the fact I'm not perfect so I can live accordingly.


I have concluded that is the best. Let the things flow out of its own. I accept the fact that I am a contradictory man. I try to save money and then, out of blue, I spend so much without ever wondering the reason for that.

But my friends I am a happy guy. Deep inside I really love my life and I have so much happiness. I dance and sing during a day. I am a healthy and I am proud of my yoga. I love my girlfriend, and I enjoy my time when I am with her. I also enjoy the time when I am on my own, quiet reading and recently I have started to watch various documentaries on Netflix. I love them.

And I observe other people. I see they are not satisfied. I am satisfied, maybe I would like to have less belly fat but other than that all is good. I don't work hard, I enjoy in what I do, I love my job. I am happy, never busy and I've stopped looking for the next big thing. There is no such thing.

So I'm feeling your pain my dear reader, because just like you, once I was going after so many things: my career and education, creative, personal and spiritual development, my relationships, health and wellness. Just like you I had some fun once in awhile!


But, I stopped running. I don't give a shit for superficial goals. I have seen that I am my own greatest enemy. It is I that doubt, complicate life, cloud my mind with unimportant thoughts and negativity, punish myself, hate myself and then I feel sorry for myself because the world is making my life a living hell. Fuck it, life is tough for everyone.

Yup, I am a contradictory guy.. so fucking what?