Happy Birthday My Love!!!
Today is my daughter's birthday.
She is all that I have here in Canada. She is everything to me. I wish her lots of happiness.
Why I didn't have more kids?
As a seven years old kid I wondered what is the reason people get married. I
was a good observer and I noticed that not a single family is happy. As a kid
I could not understand why so many men and women are living together being
married and then quarrel about trivial issues, obviously, deep down, they hate
each other. I observed the same thing in my family and the families of my
relatives and in the neighborhood.
In my first grade in school, I vowed that I will never get married and I will
never have children. I think people make kids without ever thinking about
them, without any responsibility for the future of those kids. Very early in
my life, I noticed that everyone born here, on this planet, is a slave.
I remember the exact time when my daughter was conceived. After wedding my
ex and me were under pressure from my parents to have a baby. Every morning
was the same question - is there something new? And under those circumstances,
one day we decided to have a baby.
My daughter was born nine months later and my life changed completely. My ex
had a surgery, when she got out of the hospital she could not sit at all, so I
took care of my daughter.
I was feeing her, I remember exactly 60 ml of
baby formula for the first month, I'd bath her, I'd change her diapers... for almost 3 months until my ex fully rcoverred.
29 years after, I still feel a tremendous responsibility for my daughter. 4 years ago I made my last will and in front of two witnesses signed it in the lawyers office. I'm leaving all my material possessions, everything I have, to my daughter. Nothing will change that.
I would divorce my ex a long before we actually split up but I was thinking about my daughter. My ex did not have a job and I did not know how
she will support herself.
When you take a moment and look around at the world, things are really messed
up. Just watch the 6 o’clock news. What will you see? News about wars, riots,
conflicts, illness, poverty...
Sure, the mainstream media strategy is to sell bullshit and keep you focused
on such things, but besides that, if you look closely, it reveals something
about the state of awareness of humanity as a whole.
Just look at us. Everything is backwards, everything is upside down. Doctors destroy health, lawyers destroy justice, psychiatrists destroy minds, scientists destroy truth, major media destroys information, religions destroy spirituality and governments destroy freedom. - Michael Ellner
This quote is a simplified way of looking at the state of humanity. I can
freely say the whole humanity experiment is failing, and main reason for that
is profit. I don't like this planet, this world and this bullshit
society.
I did not want to bring another kid to this living condition. I have her, I'm
proud of her but at the same time I feel guilt giving her life in this
world. I think she deserved better than this planet and I feel responsible for
bringing her here. After her, I did not wanted to have more kids.
My daughter read this and she sent me a text message... she said.. it is okay, she loves me and she is happy that she was born with such parents.
Happy Birthday Honey!!!
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