Behavior From Being!!!

I got a letter from Canada Pension, they offering me a Canadian pension from age 60, I can apply it now. I was stunned to read it. I am not going to apply for pension yet. Fuck it!

So many people of my age are looking into retirement as a thing to save them from daily problems, from work, from job irritation and tiredness. They do not see they are deceived. With retirement income they will not have enough money for basic living but even if they have large RRSP or other income they will be crashed by retirement's boredom.

They'll be too tired to live up to the expectation they have. For them the retirement is an ultimate escape. They willing pushed aside living at present moment so that you could live up to something that doesn’t exist.

To really live, and enjoy, life you’ve got to let go of hopes and expectations. Cherish your life and the present time. If something happens, it happens, it is not that you make it happen, it just does. If it doesn’t, then it wasn’t meant to; let it go. You think if you don’t interfere things won’t happen.

Life is meant to be fun. It doesn’t go anywhere it just is, in this very moment. It is easy and effortless, but by waiting for something better you rarely recognize it for what it is.

Today New Practice Starts

Out of nowhere I restarted my yoga practice. Last week I had 3 practices and I am going to continue...

Besides yoga today I am starting practicing a psychological practice of being fully aware (in thought, talk and doing). It is a second level of self observation.

The basics of self observation is to split your mind into observer and doer. While "doer" does things in this world the "observer" just observe and see thoughts, speech, emotions, feelings, anger, daily frustrations, happiness etc..

It does not do anything about what it sees, it just observe. It is like watching a movie. The entire world is a theater and I am an actor. Passive self observer does not change things as they are... it just watch the happenings.

The second stage of self observation is behaving from Being. This is what I am starting today! At all times I need to hear OM sound and that sound like buzzing in the ears comes when mind is silent, when there are no thoughts.

From that psychological position, without thinking and with shiny eyes, all my actions are going to proceed. I am going to be funny, humble... unconcerned, happy and present in the moment.

That is BEHAVIOR FROM BEING practice.

It will take some time to get accustomed to this behavior but I am going to be persistent. That is the most important endeavor for May 2024.

Fuck Canada Pension, my retirement is Ashtanga yoga and the present moment. Every time I step on the yoga mat I'm so happy that I'm still here, moving and looking breathlessly in this shitty world. It is a wonder being untouched by all bullshit of the world - inside and outside.